La Dolce Love

G.R.O.U.N.D.E.D

2010-08-07T01:43:00.003+08:00

yes!! what A.J told me is true... more than true...

stubborn/ degil, all i can say about me...

and i did it again despite many warnings...

we are totally two different world...

i not him and he not me...

will not in the talking terms...

hopefully not that long...

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Ramadhan will be here in a few days time... Am i ready to take up the challenge... insyaallah...

nothing i can do to change me... its me after all...

im feeling down but i just dont think im telling the whole story... bits by bits...

but i really want to say this to my friends... all of u!! yes!!

Dear friends,

here i am wan to say thanks alot for being part of my life...

part, parcel and pieces...

you will be always in me...

sempena nyer menjelang bulan ramadhan, saya ingat meminta maaf dari hujung kaki ke hujug rambut.

kasar bahasa, tersalah silap langkah, harap dapat di maafkan...

saya sayang kamu...dan kamu akan sentiasa berada disisi ku...

aku ingin meminta izin mengundur diri buat seketika...

takkan ku lupa mu dalam doaku...

hanya DIA lebih mengetahu...

sering kali kita lupa dan alpa... dunia ini hanya satu persinggahan... ini semua hanya sementara...

aku akan sentiasa berada di sini... jangan lupa diriku dalam doamu...

*i really wish if i could show what i feel right now*

now i should take my leave...see you around...

updates and updated...

2010-07-19T22:14:00.008+08:00

i just love my weekends... weeee~~~~

a picture create a thousand words... *is it correct??* whatever it is... haha as long im happy...

the weekends where i dont do any parts of my stuff but enjoying the days... lets see the pictures...

enjoy!! =)

the room no...

welcome!!

the theme...

the bed with awesome scenery...

the mini pantry...

the food...

surprise!!! kak aishah!!!

its game time!!!

not forgetting the kids!! they also want to guess!!

lets chamwhore!!!

love this.. teeheehee

last but not lease... we get to see this from the room!! yeah!! haha

more pics in FB!!!

now i should go to bed.. if not i cant wake up it the morning.. and yes!! this week, i start to fast to pay back my last year fasting... haha.. happy fasting... huhu

and yeah this year i cant wait to start my ramadhan...and do im starting it now... insyaallah...

okae... i really need a rest as im going to start my peak period week haha... have a happy day ahead... nites!!!

....

2010-07-15T23:51:00.001+08:00

Daku terasa ingin membawa
Cinta yang terlara ke titik mula
Kembali mencuba untuk kali kedua
Menggilapkan gerhana jiwa

Pernah ku terasa ingin merayu
Pada kasih dulu pulang padaku
Lupakan dosaku putihkan kelabu
Tenangkan amarahmu
Namun?

Bisakah yang terpadam dinyala
Bisakah yang terhina dicinta
Walau ku himpunkan sesalku
Bisakah terbuka kalbu

Naluri meminta kuungkapkan kata
Seindah bahasa janjikan setia
Akan bersemilah cinta dihatinya
Percaya ku semula
Namun?

Bisakah yang benci disayangi
Bisakah yang dusta dimaafi
Walauku himpunkan sesalku
Bisakah terbuka kalbu

Bila senduku berlinang sayu
Dalam rinduku ku tertanya

Bisakah yang benci disayangi
Bisakah hatiku difahami
Walauku himpunkan sesalku
Bisakah terbuka kalbu

lovable updates...

2010-07-13T21:43:00.002+08:00

yar semangat seminit haha...

i should like update my post right?? haha...

sorry.. the bz-ness plus tired-ness = lazy-ness of updates...

im suppose to update about myself.. for my friend who is far away and to everybody right... hahaha...

alhamdulilah takrif islam class ended and im not continue... due to certain reason... but to no worries insyaallah i want katam and give myself around 6 mths... can i?? hehe... if there's a will theres a way... right!!

next, ive been bz with cpr... yeah... for the last months, i was busy with cpr and takrif islam and now cpr only... training will go like alternate days?? hhaha... gosh.. i can imagine how tired i am going to be with the work load at work and the pressure too... gosh!!... still insyaallah i can survive... and yet again when the times up, i will like, i loose with the time, loose with energy and loose with everything. but i know Allah is there for me, and i stand up again on my feet to continue this journey.

cpr is a few days away, and i still yet to get my script... haha!! i hope i can memories my lines... haha...

okae enough about cpr... and im not going to talk about work.. haha..

this morning, as i walk up the hill as usual, i saw this man in his late 50's?? hmm... he was handicap. nt fully but can see his way of walking. i was proud of him. although in his condition, he still walk up the hill just to get to the workplace. he s not the first one i saw. there was another malay uncle too.. but lately ive not see him around. i just love the courage of them. if i saw them, how late i am, i will still walk slowly behind them. i dont mean anything but i will feel pity if i overtake them.

hmmm... Dear friend in brunei, i hope u r doing well... i miss msging u and updates u haha... please come back soon as we will make a reunion wif kak Z.. hehe..

Kak Z, i was happy that i get to contact u again.. haha... i hope u r doing fine... hehe... and yeah lets meet up as alot of thing we need to talk about... kwang3...

Honey, i wish we have $$$ haha... but what to do, after the ceremony i will kidnap you for sure... hehehe... *dagdugdagdugdagdug* hehe...

Sugar, i miss lepaking with u... esp at starbucks ker... haha... lets go i want newyork cheesecake.. am craving for it... hahaha...

Babe, i want to shop more!!! but raya is coming and puasa too so going to save up hahaha...but all thanx to u...

Aymanitez, i will make a mess with u guys... i know the main person is busy with cpr but i will be calling up u all soon... hahaha...

hmmm apa lagi ehk...

ok2 this is wat i want to post for such a long time in my brain hahaha...

in 2009, i got a good news from my dearest close ite friend that she getting engage. and during her engagement day, i get 2 good news an i am sooooo damn happy hahahahaha!!! all in one day... at the same day i receive an invitation from ite friend also that she getting engage and the last one is a call form a best friend that she getting engage...

in 2010, a lovable sister of mine also getting engage... im soooooo damn happy till i cried my heart out... all the people that i love is stepping to another room... haha...

no!! its not that soon for me... ive yet to find MR RIGHT for me... nyehehehe...

i just want to say out loud... that i am so HAPPY!!

okae cukup panjang... long enough right...

will see u guys around soon... after cpr?? oh no!! dats long... haha...

cpr on 24th july and a short glance of u in news on 23rd july... hehehe... so catch us up... heheh...

waalaikumsaam... hehehe

kata kata cinta

2010-07-07T21:37:00.001+08:00

Sungguh menyakitkan mencintai seseorang yang tidak mencintaimu,
tetapi yang lebih menyakitkan adalah mencintai seseorang
dan tidak pernah memiliki keberanian untuk mengutarakan cintamu kepadanya.

Jangan pernah mengucapkan selamat tinggal jika kamu masih mau mencoba
jangan pernah menyerah jika kamu masih merasa sanggup
jangan pernah mengatakan kamu tidak mencintainya lagi
jika kamu masih tidak dapat melupakannya.

Kadang kala, orang yang kau cintai adalah orang yang paling menyakiti dirimu. Kadang kala pula, teman yang membawamu ke dalam pelukannya dan menangis bersamamu adalah cinta yang tidak kau sadari...

Mencintai... Bukanlah bagaimana kau melupakan, melainkan bagaimana kau memaafkan. Bukan bagaimana kau mendengarkan, melainkan bagaimana kau mengerti. Bukan apa yang kau lihat, melainkan apa yang kau rasakan.

its time

2010-07-06T20:58:00.003+08:00

i guess its time for me to post something up...

its been a quite while "under construction"...

ive been thinking to make a new post... starting a fresh ahead... leaving the past behind, and looking forward to the future...

how lovely is the days...

yes im tired as usual... non stop activities... and i guess nobody like me in that way... my body have been struggling... all because of me... all that my body want is, a day of rest... without doing nothing except housework...

new features in this blog... will share what i see when i stay at one spot... and all about people...

people reaction, people thinking, people movement...

look like boring, but i will try my best to make it wonderful.... insyaallah...

to u who is reading... no more about u or people close to me... but stranger they are...

i love u sooooo much Allah...

till here and till next time...

2010-06-11T01:02:00.000+08:00

UNDER CONSTRUCTION

something random

2010-06-08T18:57:00.003+08:00

Love: can i tell you something??

Heart: sure. what is it?

Love: i dont know why, i dont know how to say... my heart is crying... i fall in love but i know im going to hurt myself...

Heart: who?? who did u fall for? someone i know?

Love: no.. but i didnt get to talk to him...

Heart: saper tu? mana kenal?

Love: hari - hari jumpe itupun kalau tk merayap atau ke arah destinasi yang lain.

Heart: huh?? saper seh? is it me??

Love: no!

Hear: then who??!! who is the hell is he??!!

random 2

2010-06-06T00:51:00.002+08:00

i dont know why...

another random post from me...

today a day in library finish up my research and assignment... hehe...

keeping myself quiet this days... as i really need to do soul searching... should i stay or leave it... after the trip that day, yes i did feel something but after that only sms i receive... yar i guess i put hopes again... might be i keep too much already...

i keep wondering... wonder and wonders...

firstly, why is the library so pack with people today... haha... hardly to find a sit... hmmm...

secondly, i really wonder who is that person... i might feel unsatisfied because i got my own Deary with me... cant i keep falling in love with him??

thirdly and so forth, i guess let it be a secret in me...

and so people... i guess i still living in confusion... am i right honey??

oklah... bye... thanx...

...Don't think or judge, just listen

random

2010-05-30T21:03:00.002+08:00

i dont know why or what...

but then i feel like im in love... with??? i dont know!!!

i fall in love with him again... who is he??

but then i just feel it...

i fall in love with somebody...

gosh sape seh..

ok ill stop sorie...

kata kata cinta

2010-05-30T16:36:00.000+08:00

Cinta seperti matahari, ia tetap bercahaya. Walau malam menjelma, cahayanya pada bulan tetap menerangi kekadang ia juga gerhana tetapi akan kembali jua kecerahannya.

Cinta adalah santapan jiwa. Jiwa tanpa cinta bagai rumah yang kosong. Cinta tanpa menjiwai bagai layang-layang putus tali.

Cintu adalah buta…cinta tidak mengenal usia, paras rupa, mahupun kekayaan dan harta karun, tetapi dari keikhlasan dari hati setiap insan antara satu sama lain.

Tidak semua orang yang engkau cintai, mencintaimu dan sikap ramahmu kadang kala dibalas dengan sikap tidak sopan. Jika cinta suci tidak datang daripada tabiatnya, maka tidak ada gunanya cinta yang dibuat-buat.

Sayang tidak bermaksud cinta. Suka tidak serasi dengan cinta. Kagum tidak bererti cinta. Bangga tidak semestinya cinta. Cinta adalah CINTA .

Cinta itu seperti sinar matahari, memberi TANPA mengharap kembali. Cinta itu seperti sinar matahari, TIDAK MEMILIH siapa yang ia sinari. Cinta itu seperti sinar matahari yang MEMBERI KEHANGATAN DI HATI..

Cinta umpama ‘treasure hunt’. Cita cita dan tujuan kita satu untuk menuju ke penamat yang paling mengembirakan. Namun di dalam perjalanan kita akan menghadapi pelbagai rintangan dan cabaran. Andainya tidak mampu meneruskan, kita akan tersungkur dan hadiah utamanya akan di kebas oang lain. Tetapi tak usahlah kecewa. Walaupun hadiahnya tidak kita perolehi, tetapi keseronokannya kita sudah rasa. Jadi bercintalahsepenuh hati. Namun janganletakkan harapan terlalu tinggi.

Kekecewaan terlalu pahit untuk ditelan, terlalu payah untuk dilupakan namun dalam cinta pasti akan merasai kecewa dan dikecewakan walau bukan itu matlamat dalam setiap percintaan.

Kadangkala orang yang paling mencintaimu adalah orang yang tak pernah menyatakan cintanya padamu kerana orang itu takut kau berpaling dan menjauhinya. Dan bila dia suatu masa hilang dari pandanganmu….kau akan menyedari dia adalah cinta yang tidak pernah kau sedari….

Cinta suatu yang indah, cinta boleh buat kita gundah, cinta buat hati berdarah dan cinta jua boleh membawa kesalan yang tak sudah.

frustration

2010-05-25T19:19:00.002+08:00

boring plus bingit...

i just dont understand my mum... and im hurt lah of course...

she pretty well know me by now and she really expect me to follow whatever she say... ok fine

but then she shouldnt make las min plan and expect me to cancel everything which i have plan a month ago... sorielah...

kan dah janji org...

lain kali org tny jwp btol2 jgn diam ajer... skarang nk bingit2 dgn org... argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ntahlah dah bingit ar...

ok fine if this s the situation i will stop everything...

YES i mean EVERYTHING.... and will show my face at home and attend to ur last min agenda...

i may sound very bingit but at the same time im sad... i hurt her not only dat she hurt me... argh... life is upside down...

kan kite baru pergi holiday early of this year... asl nk pergi cepat sgt... and i dont see the purpose seh...

i just dont want to talk about it...

goodbye....

what kind of sleeper are you?

2010-05-11T21:43:00.000+08:00

Ever wondered what your sleeping position says about the kind of person you are? A survey of 1,000 British reveals that the six most common sleeping patterns are indicative of personality types.

Six most common sleeping positions (Graphic from bbc.com)

Foetus position: A whopping 41% of participants sleep in this curled-up manner. Women are twice as likely to rest like this and it is listed as the most common position. These sleepers are said to have a tough exterior but are still sensitive and may appear to be shy but warm up quickly.

Log position – If you sleep on your side with both arms down, you are a social, easy-going person who is trusting, sometimes to the point of being gullible. The study showed 15% of people sleep like a log.

Yearner position - A close third is the side-lying position with both arms out in front of the body, with 13% of partipants sleeping like this. Yearners are noted to be open-minded and still cynical, suspicious, and stubborn about sticking to decisions once they are made.

Soldier position - These sleepers lie on their backs with arms down and kept close to the body. This 8% study is said to be reserved, quiet, without fuss, and hold themselves and others to a high standard. Soldier sleepers have a higher likelihood for snoring due to the flat-back position, which may not cause them to wake up often but may result in a less restful night’s sleep.

Freefall position - Those people who lie on their bellies with arms under or wrapped around a pillow with head turned to the side, make up 7% of the population studied. Freefallers are brash, outgoing, and are very uncomfortable with criticism.

Starfish position - Sleepers who lie on their backs with arms up near their head or the pillow account for 5% of participants. These people are good listeners, helpful, and are uncomfortable being the center of attention. People who sleep in starfish position are more likely to snore and to suffer from a poor night’s sleep more often.

101 post

2010-05-09T00:34:00.003+08:00

okae tk penting...

i just realise this is my 101 post...

betul kan tk penting.... haha...

thanx to Honey for the first one who congrats me.... (lagiiiiiiiiiiiii takkkkkkkkkkkkk peeeeeeennnnntiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiingggggggggggg)

Terjemahan Doa’ :
Ya Allah! Aku mohon pemilihan Mu menerusi pengetahuan Mu dan aku mohon kekuatan Mu menerusi kudrat Mu serta aku minta pada Mu sebahagian dari limpah kurnia Mu yang sangat besar. Sesungguhnya Engkau amat berkuasa sedangkan aku tidak berkuasa, Engkau amat mengetahui sedangkan aku tidak mengetahui dan sesungguhnya Engkau amat mengetahui segala yang ghaib. Ya Allah kiranya Engkau mengetahui bahawa perkara ini (…sebutkan hajat..) adalah baik bagiku dalam urusan agama ku juga dalam urusan penghidupan ku serta natijah pada urusan ku, kini dan akan datang, maka tetapkan lah ia bagi ku dan permudahkanlah ia untukku, serta berkatilah daku padanya. Dan kiranya Engkau mengetahui bahawa perkara ini (…sebutkan hajat..) membawa kejahatan kepadaku dalam urusan agamaku, juga dalam urusan penghidupanku dan natijah urusanku, kini dan akan datang, maka elakkanlah ia dariku dan tetapkanlah kebaikan untukku sebagaimana sepatutnya, kemudian jadikanlah daku meredhainya. (Dari hadis riwayat Imam Bukhari)

2010-05-04T22:48:00.004+08:00

only one word...

SORRY

if so, then i will...

waiting for you here...

sunday

2010-05-02T22:10:00.004+08:00

yeah... very berabok...

im sorry to the rest of my friend... i have my reason why hp have been off...

you might think i can do or go for other things but i cant attend for today session...

its been a tough time for me since yesterday... and i decided to off my hp since last nite...

i fund out granny (dad side) is having her operation yesterday... not only that... i feel soooo damn tired which i decide to switch myself off as early as 9pm last night and wake up as early as 9 am tis morning when my mum wake me up... visit granny and j.b for household then home back to sleep... and im having a pain on my right stomach... totally pain...

what i can say this week is a hectic week... mentally and physically... although i started the week nicely, but as days goes on, alot of things happen...

Your friendship is special
Like the flowers that bloom,
Or when a butterfly emerges
From within its cocoon...

You remind me of that butterfly,
Loving and free,
Bright and colorful,
For the world to see...

We will share sunshine and rainbows;
Sometimes, the rain and the snow;
We'll stand together through it,
While the cold winds blow...

When the time is right,
We won't stop to ask "Why?"
Our friendship will take flight
On the wings of a butterfly ...

that is to my lovely honey...

...as days goes by we will be keeping quite

...we wont stop asking each other the same question

...you ask i keep quite, i ask you keep quite

...so on and so forth

...till one day the decision made

...and it was done with a nice farewell

...thanx for the last sweet memories

...hope we wont be a stranger after this

random

2010-04-17T10:29:00.002+08:00

SALAM...

somebody want me to blog about makcik paayung purple berenda-renda...

nthing special about her... but than... she's cute i tell u... from far, you can see her with her umbrella... how far is that?? hmm let me see... if you know cck bus stop near mrt till another end of traffic light you can see her...

a few times i drop by cck waiting for my friend... especialy on rainy days, surely i can see this makcik from far... hehe but she love to wear jubbah i guess... coz a few times i saw her wearing jubbah.. hehe..

i guess for now only that... if i become her friend later i will update again aites...

...kalau aku adalah satu beban untuk mu, aku rela mengundur diri ini

...aku tkkan meminta apa-apa darimu lagi

...mula dari detik ini, aku akan menjauhkan diri darimu dan mendiamkan diri ini

...aku tkkan menjawab selagi engkau tk bertanya

...biarkanlah diri ini sahaja

...kerana aku bnyak menyusahkan engkau

...terima kasih atas pengorbananmu selama ini

dropping by

2010-04-17T01:35:00.002+08:00

ASSALAMMUALAIKUM...

كيف حالك؟

أنا بخير

alhamdulilah... ana sihat masih berjalan seperti biasa. antum?

memang penat tapi mana ada orang yang tak penat kan.

نعم

lets get back to this side.. hehe...

yeah Arabic.. i guess i miss learning Arabic... but then slowly will learn on my own.. insyaallah if go the money i will continue the class...

so how are you? hows your day?

hope everything goes well...

i got something to blog but than i rather have some chat here... hehe...

still cant decide what to blog about and also the resource is not enough...

research? hmmm... im not sure... but lately i like to see around my surroundings and look around giving so thoughts on it... i got something in my mind... will share soon... yeah...

another week have pass... whats going to happen next??

haha... im not so sure yet...

am i running away from the facts?? curious...

and another tiring weekend.. insyaallah i CAN survive for 3 months right...

ok i know u blur what im talking about... only some people knows i guess...

ok misty eyes... means have to sleep...

good night and i will update the proper one...

...andai kau milikku

...akulah ihsan paling gembira di dunia

.M.I.N.D.

2010-04-15T22:07:00.002+08:00

...the day pass by without you realise it

...when by the time you realise it, the place is empty

...by the time you want to feel it, you lost everything that use to be yours

ooolala

2010-04-14T21:37:00.006+08:00

ASSALAMMUALAIKUM!!!!!!!

ahaha... i feel soooooooooooooooooo dammmmmmmmmnnnnnnnnn excited...

hahaha...

ok ok... firstly i would like to congrats Ustaz Amin for his Newborn son... Syukran Ustaz... will visit you one day...

okae... haha.. truthful i got alot of things to blog... toooooooooooo many... hahahaha...

okae next...

remember i post in my FB that i crave alot of things when im sick??

yes!! i crave alot of stuff and alhamdulilah i got all of it...

like people say... if theres a will theres a way... hahaha

there i told you... just a pity another food i couldnt get to take pic...

i crave for sweet talk strawberry milk tea and i got it when im havig bad sore throat and no voice... mum pity my and got me that... haha...

then seoul garden... as i die2 want to eat seoul garden... and i got it yesterday with mum

lastly, was egg tart... only got one piece to eat it... hehe... okae i noe like people pregnant like dat rite... but what i care if i say i want i will make sure i get it.. hahaha... thats when im sick everything have to fulfill hahaha...

okae next.. alamak i forget already...

hmmm... lets forget it.. haha..

but then i want to say this...

was chatting with sweetheart... then we browse thru alot of pic... we exchange link.. haha.. and we laugh out loud.. how i miss those time when i active as a youth.. meet alot of YDO and alot of range... hahaha... to be truthful, they got their own way, specility, personality and etc etc... haha...

they are just cool... haha... okae terimbas kembali kenangan terindah...

haha

okae i guess all that folks... kalau ade lagi insyaallah akan ku type lagi.. taking care aites...

...insan yang ku sayangi telah melangkah pergi dari harian hidupku

...engkaulah penawar, engkaulah pengasih

...tetap kusimpan kenangan manis bersama

...terima kasih dan selamat jalan kasihku

...maafkan perlakuanku ini

...jangan tangisi ketiadaanku ini nanti

...tetap merinduimu selalu

Daily rant...

2010-04-11T20:07:00.004+08:00

its been a long time i want to have a proper update...

but then when my hands on eba keyboard all was stuck...

today is sunday, and tomorrow is monday...

how time flies... yeah... fast...

i had the feeling of very tired... and everyday i woke up, every single day, there must be things for me to do... and with my heart say, "hey wake up. the day you are looking forward is here." or "what day is today?" yar although i feel so tired, and lazy to lift my body out from the bed... and i feel as if i had not enough sleep... and i guess alot of people out there who i dont know them is much more tired then me... thats what keep my spirits goes on for the rest of the day...

alhamdulilah, this week is the second week of Takrif Islam class... and i shouldnt put it as a reason why i feel tired lately... as it was on friday night, saturday afternoon and also on sunday, im having A.L.I.V.E class... i guess there's alot of different definition of tired... mentally tired or physically tired...

Takrif Islam will be ongoing for 3 months on friday(7.30pm - 10.15pm) and saturday(2.30pm - 5.00pm)... and hoping of not to miss any single class of it... and i really hope to benefit alot from it... i shouldnt put a high hope on me... instead which can only...

And as for A.L.I.V.E class will be ongoing for one year plus on Sunday(12pm-3pm)...

and i guess for the rest i dont know how to say in here... only Allah knows it... insyaallah i will ask guide from him...

and i feel lost at times... or even i feel awry... too much commitment... and at times i dont know what i should do... and there where i started to feel tired... my body and my mind...

ok enough about it.. haha...

from now onwards i want to use nicks for my beloved friends... you know who u are... and yeah if u reading this... please leave your lovely nick in my shoutout box... ok darlings...

(haha padahal sendiri tau tak semua orang baca) KWANG3...

...as days goes on, i will lift up my feet and willing to do anything for the better of me

...you will be always love by me

...for whoever you are keep strong and keep your spirit

...if theres a will, theres a way

...wassalam

Letter for You

2010-04-11T03:07:00.003+08:00

Honey, you have changed my life completely. You're the one who makes me beautiful. You're the one who makes me strong. You're the one who makes me feel so important; you're everything to me.

You show your love to me every day. I thank God that I have found a person like you. Please forgive me for not giving you enough time to chat with me, but I promise I will make up for it.

I really wish that you were near me. I wish that I could just call your name when I needed you and that you would be there. However, knowing that you love me so much is enough for now. Then I would wait forever to be with you. Ti amo tesoro mio. You're the only one that I want.

Love Always,

poem

2010-04-11T02:56:00.001+08:00

The rain is falling softly now
a gentle hush among slender
spring limbs heavy with blossoms
that fall with no sound like snow.
Drifting down the hill
tender floral boats that carry
prayers to the mother stream.
Far into the mists of this night
they will float towards
home in the sea...
I linger here in this place
of baptism...annointed with
the tears of Angels
who set free harbored dreams
that only our hearts may know.

cinta tersulam redha

2010-04-07T20:44:00.004+08:00

Jangan dikira pasangan yang sudah bercinta sekian lama,saat menikah akan terus mencintai pasangannya. Dan jangan dikira pasangan yang tidak melalui fasa percintaan akan sulit mencintai pasangannya setelah bernikah.

Cinta itu ibarat pohon.Akarnya tumbuh ketika kita mulai berinteraksi dengan pasangan kita.Cinta pun akan bersemi ketika kita mulai menerima segala kelebihan dan kekurangan pasangan kita.Kita sirami dan pupuk ia dengan kasih sayang dan perhatian. Ia akan mekar dan berbuah ranum ketika kita berusaha memberi yang terbaik untuk pasangan kita. Namun ia tidak akan tumbuh begitu sahaja. Ia perlu dirawat dan dijaga dari penyakit dan hama yang menganggu.

Di antara kegembiraan, kesedihan dan kehibaan…’I will marry a stranger!’…Namun aku pasrah…

Jam 8.00 malam

‘Yang mana satu ek…?’

‘Yang itukan?’..

‘Iskh..bukan lah..itu kawan dia’..

‘OOo..ye ke..hurm…. takde beza pun…Mana satu ni?’

‘Aku terima nikahnya Najdatul ‘Iffah binti Umar Faruq dgn mas kahwinnya 80 ringgit tunai….’.

‘‘Iffah dah jadi zaujah!’ Bisik Wafa’ sahabatnya seusai akad itu dan di saat aku menadah tangan berdoa. Tidak semena-mena beberapa titis air mata gugur keribaanku. Terselit juga hiba walaupun pada hakikatnya hati aku teramat gembira..

Detik-detik ijab kabul itu. Sungguh ia merupakan sebuah momentum sederhana yang memiliki energi potensi dasyat untuk mengubah kehidupan dua anak manusia yang akan menjadi sepasang suami istri. Pernikahan adalah sebuah kerja besar yang menunggu kita.Kita tidak akan lagi merasa bahagia atau sedih sendiri. Malahan sudah tidak boleh melakukan banyak hal dengan menuruti keinginan sendiri. Kini telah hadir seseorang yang mencintai kita dan harus juga kita cintai, yang memperhatikan dan perlu kita perhatikan, tempat curahan hati, berkongsi rasa, canda, tangis, bahagia, susah dan marah. Dan seseorang itu adalah suami yang Allah berikan padaku….

Bila ada keindahan,

Yang mewujud utuh..

Dalam seluruh dimensi..

Dan menyentuh utuh..

Sepenuh rasa di jiwa,

Itulah detik ijab qabul..

Selamanya..

Indahnya nyata..

insyaAllah

“Assalamualaikum!’ sapa satu suara.Aku masih tidak mampu untuk mendongak, melihat wajahnya itu. Aku berteleku dan terus menunduk. Ruang di antara para tetamu wanita di hadapanku di buka untuk lelaki tersebut mendekatiku. Aku bertambah gementar…Namun terus menghulurkan tanganku buatnya, lalu disarungkan sebentuk cincin emas ke jari manisku. Kerlipan cahaya dari berbelas kamera membuatku terus berpeluh-peluh. Dia lantas keluar tanpa berkata apa-apa. Mungkin dia segan dan malu, aku menebak. Mana tidaknya, puluhan akhawat memenuhi segenap ruang yang ada di bilik kecil itu.

‘Tak sempat lagi tengok muka dia’

‘Tak sempat ke?Tak berani ke?Ke malu?’ Wafa’ masih tersengih memerli.

‘Semualah sekali. Eh, dia ada kat mana sekarang?’

‘Makan kot…kat luarlah..pergilah tengok,’

‘Tak mahulah. Segan sangat-sangat. Dahlah tak kenal. Dia balik lepas jamuan. Esok akan datang semula’.

Aduhai…

Sahabat-sahabat yang ada geli hati agaknya melihat gelagat ‘Iffah. Mana tidaknya. Muka suami pun tak pernah dilihat Dah akad nikah pun masih belum melihat. Esoklah nampaknya rezekinya di waktu kenduri.

Di malam akadnya itu, dia masih belum bersama suaminya. Orang tua-tua kata tak elok selepas bernikah duduk sekali. Mesti tunggu majlis rasminya keesokan harinya.

Di saat itu dia masih membayangkan wajah suaminya yang hanya dilihatnya lewat gambar foto yang dikirimkan oleh ustaznya, perantara yang menjodohkan antara dia dan suaminya.

Di saat itu juga, memori lama terimbau kembali......

Dia masih teringat di saat dia ditanyakan adakah mahu dia berumah tangga dengan pemuda itu. Oleh kerana kepercayaan yang telah lama dibaja kepada manusia yang sudah lama mendidiknya, ’Iffah menyatakan persetujuannya. Bukan tergesa-gesa, tidak juga tanpa berfikir panjang. Malah, dia telah mempertimbangkannya sejak sekian lama.

Dia sangat mahukan pernikahannya hanyalah semata-mata kerana Allah. Dia mahu tindakannya itu disandarkan kerana Allah. Dia mahu berkarya untuk mengeratkan kasih dan produktif memaknai cinta tanpa mengharapkan balasan manusia, hattakan suaminya sendiri. Dia mahu cintanya itu bersumberkan kecintaan kepada Ilahi. Kecintaan yang benar-benar hidup dan menghidupkan…

‘Iffah sedar keputusannya menyerahkan segala urusan baitul muslimnya (perkahwinannya) pada jemaah untuk mengatur dan memilih pasangan hidupnya membuktikan sedalam mana kepercayaannya pada jemaah dan manusia yang bertanggungjawab menjaganya.

Memasuki alam pernikahan memerlukan akar yang cukup kuat. Ibarat sebuah bangunan, semakin berat beban yang diterima, maka akan semakin kukuh struktur asas yang dibuat. Semakin teliti penelitian yang akan dibuat ke atas bangunan yang di buat. Bukan sahaja pada struktur asas ,tetapi kekuatan pendukungnya yang lain.

Dan semenjak hari itu,setiap detik menjelangnya merambat begitu lambat, di lautan hati yang penuh bunga,senyum bertebaran di wajah-wajah cerah, yang kian berseri.

Seiring makin mendekatnya detik-detik penuh bersejarah itu, ’Iffah,seorang gadis biasa yang fitrahnya manusia, kadangkala tersadung juga. Hampir tergelincir ke lembah yang tidak diingininya. Dia mahu memelihara suci hubungan itu. Biarlah tiada ada noda. Biarlah bahagia itu bermula pada detik pernikahan itu sendiri.

Perbincangan mereka awalnya sangat terpelihara. Hanya sekadar atas urusan yang perlu dan di ‘cc’ kan pada mereka yang selayaknya.

ustaz….Ukhti…

Entah di mana ana harus mulakan…agak segan menulis kata2 walaupun tidak nampak rupa, malu pula untuk menuturkan bahasa di khalayak kalian berdua….Ana pun tidak pasti atas dasar mana ana menulis email ini, yang pastinya, aqidah ISLAM lah yang menghubungkan kita semua, tidak perlu la didetailkan lagi…Ustaz dan ukhti maklum dan jelas di dalam perkara ini insyaAllah.. ..Ana pasti ukhti iffah jelas di atas apa yang telah berlaku sebelum ini, resume telah diterima dan dibaca, boleh kata masing2 faham tidak perlu diterangkan mengapa dan siapa kerna semua itu sudah diserahkan kepada murabbi kita …ana hanyalah insan lemah yang menyerahkan segala yang berlaku kepada Allah s.w.t….semoga Allah berikan yang terbaik buat kita semua….. Tidak lain dari sini, ana hanyalah meminta keizinan menyatakan persoalan dengan tenang kepada ukhti iffah di atas perancangannya di dalam perkara ini, ana perlu lebih jelas tentang apa yang difikirkan oleh enti. …….

Perbincangan sering berlaku lewat email dan ‘yahoo messenger’. Atas alasan untuk menguruskan hal-hal bersangkut paut dengan pernikahan. Namun setelah beberapa kali berhubung sudah muncul pula icon yg mampu menggetarkan hati-hati manusia yang menanti saat yang dirasakan manis itu. Ada juga email yang terlepas dan tidak di ‘cc’ kan pada orang lain. Astaghfirullah! Pada mulanya berchatting sedaya upaya dielakkan. Namun akhirnya ‘Iffah pasrah. Tunduk pada hatinya yang seakan rindu melihat icon senyum itu menyala. Dan akhirnya syaitan itu menang jua. Walaupun tiada bicara yang melekakan. Namun cukuplah ucapan ‘doakan diriku pejuang sejati’ mampu menggetarkan dan mengusik hatinya itu. Entah mengapa saat pernikahannya itu dirasakan terlalu lama.

Thariq zayyad : ok, undur dulu…

‘iffah : ok, jaga diri ..

Thariq zayyad : doakan diriku pejuang ISLAM sejati =)

‘iffah..insyaAllah. . wassalam..

Thariq :wslm wr wbt..

Mungkin berbaur semangat perjuangan, tetapi sebenarnya ia cukup palsu! Sayang sungguh sebagai pekerja islam yang kononnya membina bangunan Islam, tetapi dalam masa yang sama meruntuhkannya. Prinsip-prinsip pergaulan dilanggar, kata-kata walaupun sebentar mampu membuka ruang fitnah. Memang di mata manusia biasa apalah sangat perbuatan itu. Mereka akan berkahwin! Tapi jiwa orang mukmin yang sensitif, yang peka dengan maksiat-maksiat kecil, dia tahu perbuatannya itu tidak diredhai oleh Allah swt. Cepat-cepat dia beristighfar. Biarlah dia bersabar asalkan pernikahannya nanti adalah suci.

Alhamdulillah, Allah tidak membiarkan ia berlaku lama. Akhirnya ada yang dapat menghidu dan menegur. Aduh..malu sungguh dirinya pada Allah! Dirinya sering dianggap hebat dan cukup tsiqah (baca : dihormati) tetapi kalah pada naluri rindunya. Walaupun sekadar icon=) namun dia merasakan itu satu noda besar untuknya!

Ruang dialog hati,

dalam kesedaran cinta ilahi,

sebagai sebenar-benar cinta.

Kita membangun sebuah pernikahan kerana cinta kita kepada Allah. Kita ingin selalu menyempurnakan cinta itu maka kecintaan kepada Allahlah adalah yang lebih utama perlu kita perhatikan demi kelangsungan pernikahan kita di dunia dan akhirat. Tentunya kita tidak ingin membawa pernikahan kita semakin jauh dariNya kerana peluang. Kita mudah terbawa arus lantaran selalu sebuk dan lalai dengan pernikahan itu. Mudah lari dari syariatnya.. Midah tertipu zahirnya dalam kebaikan. Kerana itu, kita perlu membangun sebuah komitmen denganNya dahulu sebelum menjalin komitmen dengan pasangan hidup kita…

Cinta bukan kerana keindahan yang tampak di mata..

Tetapi kerana yang menyatukan hati dan jiwa…

Akhirnya, segalanya ditinggalkan kerana Allah. Dia tidak sanggup lagi membiarkan fitnah berlaku ke atas hatinya. Komitmen dengan Allah swt dibutuhkan kerana dia bertekad membangunkan mahligai rumah tangga semata-mata mencari ridhaNya. Ingin membangunkan mahligai pernikahan dengan nuansa cintaNya dan cinta kepadaNya….

kala cinta bertanya pada cinta..

imanlah jawabnya..

Azan subuh yang berkumandang mengejutkan aku dari lamunan . Tidak disedari masa berlalu begitu cepat sekali. Kedengaran diluar suasana kelam kabut…bunyi kaca dan suara saudara mara hiruk pikuk di luar.

Baru aku teringat, hari itu adalah kenduri walimahku setelah akad semalam. Aku tersenyum sendirian. Di manakah suamiku? Bilakah dapat aku menatap wajahmu duhai kekasih?

Di sini teduh hadir kukuh,

Di kelopak cerah segala bunga,

di pucuk-pucuk hijau segala rasa..

Alhamdullillah, kenduri berjalan dengan lancar hari itu. Ramai sungguh teman-teman yang hadir mengucapkan tahniah dan menyerikan lagi suasana. Aku sempat mencuri pandang ke arah suamiku. Itupun setelah disuruh oleh sahabatku. Mana tidaknya seorang di hulu, seorang ke hilir. Penat sungguh sanak saudara menyuruh kami berjalan berdua-duaan. Sungguh aku tak mampu menahan getaran hatiku berada di samping seorang lelaki asing yang tak pernah kukenal mahupun kulihat! Namun hatiku pasrah dan menerima seadanya. Biarlah proses taaruf kami berjalan selepas ini. Dan insyaAllah kami akan mengenali keluarga besar masing-masing juga. Biarlah hari ini kami kelihatan seperti dua makhluk asing pun!

Mulai detik itu, kami melayari bahtera ini dengan keindahan dan kecintaan yang sebenar. Benarlah apabila syariat dipatuhi, manisnya pernikahan itu benar-benar dirasai. Di saat itu kisah cinta agung Khadijah r.a dan Muhammad saw kita selusuri. Betapa suburnya pohon cinta itu, akar-akarnya menghujam di hati, batangnya kukuh, rantingnya menjulang ke langit, daunnya rimbun, buahnya ranum,menaungi dan memberi kebahagiaan kepada sepasang jiwa.

Benarlah… nyata pernikahan juga memerlukan keperluan emosional yang tinggi. Hubungan dua insan yang saling memahami, empati, toleransi dan motivasi. Perlunya ada penyelarasan dan keselarian emosi. Tambahan lagi ketika awal pernikahan, banyak saat-saat yang cukup terduga, oleh itu sabar dan iman harus diutamakan. Penyelarasan ini tidak akan terjadi serta merta, seperti antena radio atau tv yang perlu diputar-putar untuk mendapat gelombang yang betul, maka penyelarasan antara dua jiwa ini juga memerlukan banyak percubaan. Ini akan terjadi sepanjang pernikahan kita hingga ke akhir hayat. Sabar dan syukur memudahkan kita memandang segala permasaalah kita dengan jiwa yang jernih…

Aku benar-benar bersyukur atas apa yang dianugerahkan padaku hari ini. Sungguh tidak ternilai cintaNya padaku….

‘ Ya Allah. dimana lagikah dapat ku temui cinta sejati..

kecuali pada cintaMu..

ke mana lagikah hati ini harus berlabuh..

kecuali pada kasihMu..

Jadikanlah hati yg lemah ini yaAllah..

tertambat kukuh hanya padaMU..

Aku mohon redha atas segenap keputusanMu

kesejukan setelah matiku..

kenikmatan memandang wajahMu..

dan kerinduan untuk berjumpa denganMu..

Ampunilah diri ini yang tidak beharga Ya Allah ..

Penuhilah kehinaannya dengan keindahan maghfirahMu’

C.R.U.S.H

2010-04-06T14:32:00.002+08:00

i guess everybody had a crush...

and i use to have a crush... older than me... not too old...

then again, i get rid of the feeling due to some reason...

but after such a long time, chat again, all the old memories was back...

a few outz make a most wonderful memories although it was a short meet upz...

but then again... as usual it was just a crush which you could not get them...

just the feeling...

missing...

2010-04-05T22:09:00.001+08:00

i miss chatting with...

miss going out with...

miss everything with...

nah suddenly i feel missing ...

2010-03-31T18:49:00.001+08:00

yes i know...

updates updates...

alot of stuff i want to say out... but... nevermind... will update some other time...

what i need now is to make my blog look like a blog...

gosh...

updates...

2010-03-07T19:37:00.002+08:00

okae.. time to update... its been long i want to blog.. but in the end.. i shut my eyes...

fuh... alot to write.. if u r tired den dont read.. hahaha...

okae i noe merepeks...

yeah new blog skin.. and intend to change again.. and dats the reason why i didnt update everything... still searching for the right one...

the RIGHT ONE??? hahaha...

okae lets start with last week friday... i guess... is it?? wanna to be exact?? the date is on... hmmm.... let me see...

26 february 2010...

yar its friday... and i tell u the time is soooooo slow at work.. haha...

after work i went to mit Lyd the babe.. haha... yeah.. its fun going out with her... even shopping!!! hahaaha... we mit ard 6 plus at novena and off to get her bubble tea first... Yeah its a priority to get a bubble tea first am i right Lyd?? haha...

went to cotton on. and we spend almost an hour?? haha... it was sooooooooo freaking... i didnt shop for myself only ok... not forgetting sister at home... so bought for her a few...

shop shop shop... and we went starbucks to chill... and by the time im hungry... get a sandwich drink and sit and talk... we talk till 11pm and we went off...

i didnt know talking with her is such a nice chat... haha.. we should do dat again aites... yar and i got alot of things to ask a favours from you... when the time comes den i will tell haha...

yar on that day i have a meeting.. but intend to give it a miss... since i had a hectic week its time for me to take a break...

next was weekends.. 27 & 28 february...

had Ayman retreat dat weekend... yar i was down due to a certain reason... when Moch Pfizer start doing ice breaking games, there's where i start to gain my confidence back...

it was such a fun and whore... gosh they are lovable peeps...

we get a bottle and put our love notes inside... ok here it goes... it was my idea where i share with all since i cant get any photo printing shop... we were on our way to west bowl...

me, ayn , nora and nabilah is the first cab to go off... and we make our way to west coast mall...

cant find anything right, we bought a bottle in blue and a hard paper also paper star.

everybody reach westbowl, except for us...

when we reach the place, ustaz askd us... "lambatnyer korang. sesat jauh sangat ker?"

nora: "a'ah... lain kita cakap lain die bawak kite"

Ustaz: "brape kene taxi fare?"

Nora: blur aready

Aqilah: cover up "$15 jer after discount" and so he belive us... the stuff that we bought i askd help at the counter to hold for us...

and th next day, i askd everyone including ustaz, to write a love notes to ayman... actually dats for ustaz only not to make it soooo obvious.. haha.. and the rest write about him.. haha...

i collect all the paper went to the toilt and roll all the papers..

one by one make their way out of the audi giving the reason stomach pain or need the toilet urgently... and fareed reason was... my father want to meet me.. haha...

and so he trust us...

when we take the final photo of us, i ask them to wait and i bring the stuff in... and awwwww we saw that tears.. hehe.. yeah... thanx ustaz for being patince with us...

hehehe...

i guess thats long enuf...

as for this week just a tiring week...

yea its true... an additional task to my work, ANC meeting, ANC faci briefing, First Aid course and lastly, today class... haha...

yar easy summaries only.. hehe...

will uplod a few pix aites... okae take care

2010-02-21T19:07:00.002+08:00

i dunnoe why im feeling low...

but putting back things with Dear did cheer me ups...

things goes wrong i guess my fault and im running away from it...

nah i guess its ok... i want *** to know that im tired of *** attitude

today is sunday...

so far so good... had learn something about islam... i guess i did learn the basic before and there goes again that i forget... hahaha...

insyaallah this time i will remember...

the only thing need to keep research and understand it...

next week class i hope i can survive since i will be having retreat then...

and next week class also, ustaz khairil amri will be teaching... lets see....

after class, ayah and ibu fetch me.. hehe... ouh yar... went to survey... survey what?? survey car... and in the end buy it... kata nk survey abeh beli... haha.. always like dat rite...

yar got a proton car... the name is exora... haha cool rite... let people say what they want but i say the car is cool... okae i sound so jakon...

the car under my name but i go no license... hahahaha...

oklah im tired... wanna rest n sleep... hehehe...

p/s: im shutting my fone together with myself... goodbye people...

2010-02-20T00:32:00.002+08:00

dah ngantok gi tidolah ape lag...

haha before i go to sleep, this is what im going to do....

i msg dear this morning...

nak kata forgiven partly... and i have tell him everything from a-z.... and so yar... insyaallah will mit him... but will depends...

tu jelah dulu dah ngantok!!!!!!!!! tido!!!!!!!!!!

2010-02-19T23:43:00.001+08:00

sharks... im going to have a hectic schedule... esp weekends... will mum understand me??

how how how???

gosh....

because of F***...

2010-02-16T23:04:00.003+08:00

im totally pissed off today...

im tired of everything...

IM TIRED...

yar today shall be my happiest day... as im looking forward for today but instead im totally pissed by someone...

im tired of you and seriously like shit...

... reminding you what to wear or wear nicely

... repeating myself and i guess you wont remember a thing about me

... and all your hurtful words as i really hate it

u say that word not only once but countless... i just dont know weather you know how to respect me or not. im just tired of it.

its easy if u dont know how to respect me, well i guess u dont deserve my respect...

i got my own pride... how angry i am to u i try not to say all those shit words... but you do... u just say whatever u like... okae fine... yang berdosa pon kau bukan aku... and i did the best to remind you instead u ignore it...

i just hate it... everytime u say those words i feel like a knife stab my heart... u dont feel that cause im the one is the victim not you...

how much i want to see u change but i guess i expect too much from you..

i just dont know what to say about u anymore... i guess you dont know me that well yet...

if you know me u wouldnt do that or even dress like dat...

i dont mind u dress like dat but remember u hurt me...

its not easy for me just to heal in a short period of time... and its no easy to console me... as today im totally hurt... just because of one word... you make me cry...

"u ingat maki2 dapat pahala?"

and i expect you to say sorry or something but instead i got this from you..

"i dont care about maki2 nie"

and that makes me more hatred...

im sorry i guess im leaving you for thee mean time... this time it takes time to heal... cause i had enough of your words...

i hope it will be useful for us... please do some reflect and i will do my part too...

ive been telling you often do some reflection and i hope some changes in you and me too...

i guess dats all...

i wont expect too much from you as i did that before and it hurts all the time whenever i dont get what i expect...

2010-02-11T21:47:00.001+08:00

ATLAST I CAN ACCESS TO BLOGGER... USING PERSONAL LAPTOP... AND I WILL UPDATE IT EVERYDAY.. WEEEE....................

HAPPY BANGET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-12-19T13:01:00.000+08:00

as i did expect... the blame goes to me agian....

WHAT THE FUCK LAH!!!!!!

pandai2 ar.. kau dah cukup tua untuk fikir...

dah lah tk reti nk msg semalam...

i really feel like screaming!!!!!!!!

just that you

2009-12-19T00:35:00.002+08:00

its good that ive been giving in instead a call from you, a msg will do...

but i got none from you...

and tell u, i wont msg you till you msg me...

thanx...

EXPRESSION

2009-12-17T20:19:00.004+08:00

need to express it...

mum came in my room, stand infront of my door...

mum: Kak kau kai bill macam mane nie?? asl boleh sampai $200??

me: ntah mane tau tak pakai byk seh...

mum: abeh sampai 200 ter masuk lah mth blom lagi...

me: mane tau *still defending myself*

yar3 all my fault lah...
as if i dont pay.. im paying it okae...
tulah who ask u to ask me take share plan with dad??
now blame me and as if im the only user....

and the situation just now seems like i wont be talking to mum in few days...
papelah... sume aku sume aku...

....... ok should stop.......

YAC done and im left with TEENZ CAMP...
the last ever camp before i went for my sweet holiday....

the prep with me handling alone and with the help from other abit still make me worn out...
and lucky there is mr Johnny who really help me alot.. haha...

YAC went smoothly... that the outline not the internal line when u see there's a lot of curve....
here are some group photo...

and i really hope i can blend myself in during alkaff camp.. as alot of youth from east side will be joining... kan shu kan...

i dunnoe why i feel this...
i really nadly need a sweet msg from Dear but instead or even since when im his banker...
like Adnin say to me... "Qilah ngan Yat main monopoly ar... Qilah jadi banker yat jadi player..."
what he was thinking all this while is to work to have money and even to give all to his parent...
i dont need any luxury dinner instead i just need u to be there or by my side and readily listen to me... you said u noe me well... and i doubt so... not that well... and u always blame me for not telling my problem to you... but how?? u expect me to msg u KIRIMSALAM AR!!! if u noe me well... i dont sms instead if i got problem its a phone call...
im blaming him again?? i hope not... why because he always say this to me, "you dont have to noe my problem cause it doesnt involve you..."
so selama nie aku dengan kau ape kawan ajelah... kite matair pon setakat happiness ajer kite share ade problem buat hal sendiri... argh!!! shitlah!!!!

kae pape lah kan...
yar he randomly msg me this days... i guess he waiting for my msg...

do u noe what...

....I GET A GOOD SCOLDING FROM IBU DUE TO MY BILL.

tak ke irritating tu...

ntahlah dah besar pandai2 fikir sendiri...
told you many times but since u still prefer your ways... my pleasure go on...

AND DONT BLAME ME IN FUTURE...

and so if u like or u dont want to work just freely msg me ok...
im tired of telling u you when to meet or not... time for u to make the decision... coz to you i control everything... but when time comes u just couldnt decide for yourself...
im still hurt and it is not healing...

AND AGAIN I TELL YOU DONT FIND EXCUSES JUST BY BLAMING ME...

OK BYE...

pissed...

2009-12-15T21:39:00.000+08:00

nothing happen on this day... as i dreamt of it once...
he came over like nobody business take his stuff and off he go...

haiz...

just dunnoe what to say animore...

since 151207

2009-12-14T22:06:00.005+08:00

looking through some pics....

we are from nothing to something...

no matter how hard the situation trying to separate us, our love is to strong...
the fight the quarrels and the argue make us even closer...
the weekly meet up only make us bubbly and much more interesting...
thanks to him and his love for me...
take care love...
hope this wont be the ending...

when the day come...

2009-12-12T00:43:00.001+08:00

how i wish i could spend more time with him just now...
and because he was late, and he didnt feel the guilt or say SORRY, im really pissed with him...
and even find a fault of his....
confiscate his cigarette yell at him and many more...
how cant i confiscate that, just withing half and hour is 4 stick.. im totally mad...
enough of him...

had fun... really need to arrange a dates with the babes...
MEL - fly kite
LYD & MEL - climbing
LYD - shopping... hahaha....
and more to come...

and i should be sleeping now as im going to have a whole day tiring camp... but a sudden fell...
im lazy...
ive yet to pack my back...
ive yet to wash my sweetie socks...
and i dunnoe lah....
but the feel is damn lazy...
and the thought of being start karat also have....
shu u have to drag me aites haha....

lovely me...=D

lovely weekedns coming....

2009-12-10T22:56:00.001+08:00

a few more hours to go.. and the time will change 0000hrs and its 11 december 2009
i just cant wait for this day to come... and more on weekends...
will be going for work... then Dear will be fetching me and off to ECP for GPG BBQ pit.. haha...
and over the weekend will be camp... wohooooo~~~~

okae shall catch a sleep now... goodnites....

a topic

2009-12-10T09:30:00.003+08:00

we were laughing and talking... and suddenly a topic came out from his mouth.. adn its a quite serious one...

"Macam mana selepas kite bertunang setelah sekian lama, tiba-tiba i dah tak suka pada you? instead suka pada org lain,"

"Not only time bertunang jer... tapi bila dah berkahwin pun boleh pudar cintanya,"

"betul jugak"

then i went blank...

yar... what happen suddenly that's happen.. no matter to him or to me...
did some research on something... and this is what i found...

Aksesori Cinta

Sememangnya rasa suka yang memutikkan cinta itu perlu. Namun, cinta sahaja tidak menjamin
Cinta perlukan aksesori sampingan. Rasa cinta perlu hadir dengan rasa tanggungjawab

Aksesori lain ialah kepercayaan.

Rasa tanggungjawab dan kepercayaan ini tidak akan wujud andai tidak rasa diri berTuhan. Cinta jadi tidak berperaturan. Cinta yang jauh dari berpaksikan Tuhan

Andai cinta berpaksikan Tuhan, barulah lahir cinta sejati yang menyembuhkan, bukan menyakitkan. Bukan cinta buta buatan manusia.

Cinta Tanpa Tanggunjawab

Dengan rasa tanggungjawab yang tinggi, si lelaki akan menghormati wanita dengan tidak merosakkannya. Kesuciannya dipelihara sehinggalah dihalalkan melalui lafaz janji `aku terima nikahnya`. Rasa tanggungjawab yang tinggi juga membentengi diri seorang wanita untuk memelihara kehormatan diri dan rahimnya. Wanita bertanggungjawab untuk mempertahankan dirinya untuk suami yang halal buatnya. Memelihara kesucian rahimnya untuk zuriat yang bakal dilahirkannya.

Cinta yang Allah gariskan bukanlah untuk menyekat. Cinta berperaturan untuk meningkatkan darjat. Cinta ekslusif!

Cinta tanpa tanggungjawab juga boleh menyebabkan rumah tangga porak peranda.

Dengan mudah, si ayah mahupun ibu boleh `mencintai` orang lain. Bayangkan, andai ibu ataupun bapa sibuk menunaikan tanggungjawab yang tidak pernah selesai terhadap pasangan dan anak-anaknya, soal `terjatuh cinta` dengan orang ketiga pasti dapat dielakkan. Memanglah cabarannya sentiasa ada. Namun, boleh dielakkan!

Sekalipun suami dan isteri saling mencintai. Tanpa tanggungjawab, selama manakah cinta dapat bertahan agaknya. Cinta dan sayang terhadap anak-anak juga perlu dinilai dengan tanggungjawab.

Anak-anak juga harus punya cinta yang penuh tanggungjawab terhadap ibu bapa.

Andai semua pihak melihat cinta disertai tanggungjawab, insyaAllah tidak timbul masalah. Masing-masing akan fokus pada memberi. Bukan menuntut hak.

cinta pada Allah juga menuntut kita untuk menzahirkannya. Laksanakan tanggungjawab sebagai hambaNya yang bertaqwa.

Dicintai Dan Dipercayai

Selain cinta dengan rasa tanggungjawab, cinta juga perlu lengkap dengan mempercayai.

Boleh anda bayangkan hidup tanpa wujud rasa percaya pada orang lain. Tidak percaya orang lain boleh melaksanakan tanggungjawabnya. Tidak percaya orang lain boleh menyimpan rahsia. Bermacam-macam lagi. Tanpa rasa percaya, sukar untuk hidup bahagia. Asyik resah tidak menentu hala.

Justeru, mempercayai itu amat penting dalam memelihara hubungan. Mempercayai seseorang bukan sahaja membuatkan diri kita tenang, bahkan membuatkan diri orang yang dipercayai itu lebih yakin.

Soalnya ialah bagaimana untuk membuatkan diri ini dipercayai sekaligus membina kepercayaan. Kemudian, bagaimana untuk memelihara kepercayaan itu sepanjang perhubungan?

i guess, to built a trust it take times. to rebuilt a trust it takes much more longer trust!

Sebelum menjalin hubungan, kepercayaan boleh mula dipupuk. Syaratnya ialah dengan tidak bermuka-muka ataupun berlakon. Lihatlah pada akhlak dan ibadahnya. Andai si dia menjaga hubungannya dengan Allah dan manusia, insyaAllah, apabila bersama kelak, kepercayaan itu sudah terbina.

Bayangkan seorang lelaki yang matanya liar memandang wanita lain. Apakah kita percaya selepas berkahwin kelak, dia akan menundukkan pandangnya?

Bayangkan seorang wanita yang tidak segan silu bertepuk tampar dengan lelaki yang haram buatnya. Apakah selepas bernikah kelak, dia akan menjadi wanita pemalu yang memelihara kelakuannya?

Bayangkan seorang teman yang suka mengumpat orang di sana-sini. Apakah kita yakin, kita tidak akan diumpatnya selepas menceritakan masalah kepadanya?

Ya, benar, manusia boleh berubah dengan izin Allah. Namun, kepercayaan sudah tercalar. Sukar!

Binalah kepercayaan sebelum menjalin hubungan. Kemudian peliharalah kepercayaan itu. Sekali tercalar, mengambil masa untuk memulihkannya.

Cinta Perlu Disuburkan

Cinta perlu ada rasa tanggungjawab dan mempercayai. Semacam kering sahaja bunyinya. Serius dan tidak berwarna-warni. Disebabkan itulah, cinta sesama manusia ini perlu disuburkan dengan kata-kata dan sentuhan. Sentuhan fizikal mahupun jiwa.

Memuji sahabat tentang kelebihan dan sifat positif dirinya.

Membelai anak yang sudah remaja dengan kasih dan mesra.

Menghadiahkan bunga buat isteri tercinta.

Menggantikan bebelan dengan kata-kata semangat buat suami tatkala perkahwinan bertambah usia.

Mengusap wajah ibu dan ayah yang sudah tua dan tidak berdaya.

Bermacam-macam perkara yang boleh dilakukan untuk menyuburkan hubungan sesama manusia melalui sentuhan dan kata-kata. Kadangkala, kita yang tidak amalkannya. Lama-kelamaan, bertukar menjadi kekok. Kemudian, dilabel buang tabiat. Parah!

Mari kita hayati kembali sirah. Kisah cinta manusia paling agung. Cinta Rasulullah terhadap isterinya. Cinta bukan dalam bentuk `segera`. Cinta Rasulullah disertai usaha yang dibajai sentuhan dan kata-kata. Dengan izin Allah, mencairkan hati, menyentuh jiwa.

Tatkala isteri tidur nyenyak kepenatan, Rasulullah memilih untuk tidur diluar, kerana kasihan.

Rasulullah juga tidak kekok meringankan beban isteri dalam menguruskan rumah tangga.

Pernah satu ketika, hidung Saidatina Aisyah dipicit. “Sabar dahulu ya Humaira”, kata nabi seraya memicit hidung Aisyah. Sentuhan mesra untuk menyabarkan dan meredakan.

Rasulullah dan isterinya saling menasihati, bersama-sama memperbaiki diri.

Biji benih gred A, andai tidak dibaja dan dijaga, masakan dapat menghasilkan buah yang sedap. Samalah halnya dengan cinta, andai tidak dibaja, masakan dapat terus kekal bahagia.

Cinta itu perlu, namun cinta semata-mata tidak membawa ke mana. Permulaan yang baik itu tidak menjamin kesudahan yang baik, tanpa baja dan dijaga.

Semoga kita sama-sama dapat amalkan tatkala diri menjalin cinta sesama makhluk menuju cinta kepadaNya.

abandon

2009-12-09T21:06:00.002+08:00

like seriously i abandon this blog...
and when im here im blank, when im not full of story...

but no matter what...
just cant wait for the weekend...

firstly GP's pit... and cant wait to mit the GP's babes... haha

and secondly camp!!! i just want to go over the rock wall... haha and can i ignore the rest??
kwang3...

ok bye sleeping time...

2009-11-17T23:29:00.005+08:00

i guess time to update my bloggie... btol tk??
haha...

yar alot to blog.. also my mind is full of stuff... i want to get rid of it if possible....
but slowly...

here it goes... lets start with saturday...

alot of stuff and last min things to do... haha.. biasa jugak...
that was before the BBQ lah.. haha...
then we reach CSC was like 6plus.... and the first thing we did is to settle down.. so the first four to arrive is ME, AYN , NORA AND ASYARI...
yar... it was drizzling, so me and nora went to look for the person who incharge of the TREEHOUSE to have our indoor BBQ open... but in the end we cant find one... and then receive call from asyari and he say "KITE NK TUNGGU PETIR UNTUK START BBQ KE??" i was just like "UH??" and his reply "KAU ADE LIGHTER??" and none of us had it... hahaha... and so me and nora went to west mall.. haha... no choice babe!!!...

the BBQ was fun.. THANX TO ME RIGHT?? haha... yeah...
and THANX TO EVERYONE who have come for the BBQ.... so juniors im waiting for you guys to organise one.. hahaha...
i really had fun... didnt eat much but still i enjoy.. haha...

SUNDAY
was a trip down to orchard with nora to catch 2012... the movie was awesome and make me cry hehe...
then to west coast park with dearest shu... and alot of stuff we did esp cam-whoring!! hahaha..

monday work as per normal... only one thing after work happen... wait for somebody for almost one hr which didnt turn up and in the end i went back home... 3 hrs ltr receive a call and i was like... "tau pon nk kol" haha.... but actually not his fault but we were to blame... coz we didnt thought of exchange no... haha.. ask people around and everybody give a late reply like DUH!!!.. hahaha....

and today was a meet up with this yesterday person... nasib baik datang haha...
yeah meet up do planning force him to change his budget proposal and alot of stuff... and he force me to take leave to attend for the weekday camp.. aiyo!!...
hah.. will consider that okae dun worry...

actually i dunnoe why i had this feeling... being left out...
2 days i didnt talk to my mu.. yar2 ape2lah kan... coz partly i mad at her and she mad at me too... whateverlah.. coz this time i wont give a damn... only me who noes the feeling... but can atleast she explain what happen?? so i wont be like "UH??"

dont understand right nevermind...
i keep saying this to myself... "yelah anak kesayangan die buat ape aje boleh kalau aku.... papelah kan" i dunnoe why... but argh!!! it makes me feel like shit and hell...

im trying hard to make this family as one.. and in this family it lacks of communication i tell you!! i really hate it!!! im jealous if i see other family laugh and talk as one... but not my family... all they noe is shout and scold... and we have no bonding...
i just dunnoe what to say but that what i feel...

okae that enuf...

okae im having a hectic period since its almost to year end...

BBQ is done.. as one down.. and lots to go...
21st will be back to work as there will be stock taking...
22nd will be out early morning to bukit timah for recce...
the another weekend will be TBC...
followed by december...
5th CPR
6th again recce and confirmation
7-9th dec is alkaff camp... TBC
11th GPG BBQ
12-13th nwmc camp
18-19th - TBC

and lots more to come...
haiz... i just really feel sian...

bye!!!!

fuh!!!!!!!!

2009-11-13T19:39:00.002+08:00

another friday arrive...
haha.. and yet i still got alot of stuff to clear... but why am i here?? haha
now waiting for asyari confirmation weather he gonna to transfer me money or not... if yes i need to go out to get the stuff if no.. gosh!! only god know's....

im sooooooo excited and cant wait for tomorrow to arrive.. hahaha...
but yet again... im stuck in the brain for the plan.. haiyo how??
hahaha...

okae2 takpe cool...

tomorrow BBQ and bowling.. hehe...

then wee~~ nothing haha... sunday will be just for family....

oklah will update soon need to go bye!!!!!!!!!

outing plan??

2009-11-10T18:59:00.002+08:00

yeah....

once this 14 november over... im done with one meet-up...

and alot more to go... gosh i it seems that im a busy person*mcm paham*...

BBQ with the MYV this saturday at CSC... weee~~~
just damn excited and cant wait for the day to come

then again i still have alot of stuff to arrange...

and soon i guess i will neglect him again hahaha...
*see how* hehe....

november was truly pack.. fuh...*wipe perspire*
K.L trip will be postpone...

and yet again...
here are the list...

the fabulous four meet up *haha asl boleh jer aku*
i mean SHU, NORA and AYN!!!!!!

next was wif the GPG BABES...

then the CUZZIE OUTING....

and i really have to do this....RENOVATING MY ROOM

ermmm... with not much weekend... i try to make it all before the new calenders... hahaha

bye!!!!

nurhidayat

2009-11-06T21:26:00.004+08:00

yeah im blogging!! haha...
*kae mepekz*

something bugging... but im not ready to type...
will expose it soon...

i miss Dear... only him who make me laugh and listen to every single words of mine...
he entertain me and hes not tired to every single thing i do...
how angry we are to each other and how we hate each other and how we are going to end it but still in the end our love are too strong to separate us...

how i wish i could change for the better and for him too... and i hope he will be the first and last for me...

loving me everyday is a wonderful thing...

today mark i know him for 2years... and next month will be 2years we together...

thanx for loving me and hold me tight...

weekend....

2009-11-02T19:21:00.008+08:00

hello.... how are you?? hehe... im fine but tiring and soon will knock off... haha not work but to sleep... kwang kwang kwang....

errrmmmm weekend okae...

friday send cuzzie off... hehe yes!! Dad reach home early so we went to send him off and waited.. haha...

Saturday yes!! went out with Dear but before that went for photo shooting at Jane house Orchid Par Condo...

9 months and dueing soon and she expecting baby girl!! hehehe... confirm pretty like the mother...

then went meet Dear like 4pm and went to BP Al-Iman to take something and off to AMK HUB... suppose to catch imagine that but in the end watch LOVE HAPPEN... i rated 8/10... hehe...
before watching movie, we went for our late lunch and early dinner... hehe... and it was heavily rain... but atleast it was raining cat and dog while we off for home...
reach home early and that child went home late and again i sleep late.. hehe...

and Sunday, wake up early off to kak aishah wedding... she was so damn pretty!! i like.. haha...

went home ard 4pm... coz accompanied my kakak sedara... reach home thought want to sleep then Dad say want to go granny house and so off to granny place... then Dear msg me that he will be picking me up... so we went to chill/lepak... in the first place at marina piers then off to yishun dam... haha...
great and had fun with the GPG babes, lydia and mel.. hehehe... hey girls outing soon aites!!!... haha... kae... i think i should make myself free first then can asked that question... hahaha...

and today.... i took half day leave and feel guilty/menyesal... why?? because i had alot of work... easy say work is piling up!!! when end of the mnth and early of the month... fuh!!! haha tapi takpe... i make a promise already hahaha... so had enjoy myself...
went to this hotel, Naumi and pronounce as Noumi... it was superb place... went in the smell of aroma was like fuh!!! best!! then went to the room some more.. fuhyo!!!

ouh we decorated the place for kak aishah... haha... and dorg tk tau pon hehe...
had late lunch at macdonald and of to CSC for BBQ pit payment...

and then off to sembawang nit my scandal... haha... went in to arcade and we had fun laughing hehe... and then KFC....

wahai scandal ku, gemaklah i everyweek makan KFC... hahaha... see you same place same day diff timing kae...

i think this is long enough.. hehe... okae2 bye!!!!!!!!

wasalam....

movie...

2009-10-30T20:10:00.004+08:00

thinking and planning.. and and... the idea for tommorrow movie should still be ON yeah...
only venue will be decide later...

so Dear ive decided to watch this...

going to spend the quality time with him hopefully... and end of the day mite want to wash bike together as i did promise alot of time but always back out last minute...
ever since im attached to him, and since his previous bike, i never help him to wash his bike... hehe so im trying to make up one of this day...

and i really have this urged to go out with love and scandal... not at neighborhood area like usually we did but miteb want abit far from it.. one day aites... hehe...

and seriously i miss my babes... NORA SHU AYN... when can we chill and laugh the four of us again?? anytime soon?? or after i came back?? okae??

hehe... okae chiow... bye!!!

heard this...

2009-10-30T08:53:00.008+08:00

heard this from colleague this morning...

"MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS"

*ooooppppssss im sorry*

"ade la manusia yg fikir kita ni nyusahkan dia.tu yang macam pahamSEMUA la yang dia buat tu mcm paham. nak step you nye post mcm paham. tapi ekceli utk orang lain ah.yang SUKA BACA BLOG ORANG SENYAP2."

somebody send me this... and didnt leave their name... and so to whoever it is... please stop coz people mite misunderstand it again....

2009-10-30T08:19:00.003+08:00

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some people just cant stop...
nevermind its their hobby...
yang dosa pon dia...

okae... guess what this week is a havoc week haha...
after work mit my scandal together with my love haha..
*only siti nuraini know who is my scandal*

monday was a KFC dinner with scandal... late home...
tuesday was a PATAYA and MACDONALD with scandal and love... late home again...
wednesday is the only day i reach home early till granny thought i didnt go to work... haha...
thursday was at granny place then mit love... late home again...
friday will be meeting scandal and love... haha.. today will be supper late home hahaha... coz going airport sending cuzzie off to taiwan.... hehehe...
friday... in the end scandal fall asleep and drop the idea of meeting love due to rain.. hehe... and so left with sending cuzzie off.. so hopefully dad will reach home early...

this week is the happiest week of mine... its like i want to spend the whole week with love... but nah its okae... and spending the quality time with my scandal...

you are a supper dupper girl/boy... patutlah memang patut pon dia buat macam gitu..........

which one will you keep?? your friend or your gf/bf??
me?? ofcos my friend but if my guy understand i want both!! and so i got a lucky guy who understand me... and we be fair with each other... no CONTROLLING okae...

chiow bye!!!!

it mine... my problem... its freeworld...

2009-10-28T23:02:00.008+08:00

some people are just ridiculous...
and so... whatever it is... it make no difference...
but to you... nah i think its your problem...

this is freeworld.. and i dont think you can stop me...
and it does not related to you anyway...
why make the fuss...

get a life and stop buzzing around... malay say "menyebok"...
hahaha... *so ugly laugh*
you start it and in the end you stuck at your own words...
one sentence... GOOD FOR YOU....

you dont feel the anger... but wondering what if it hits you...
i dont think i need to reveal that but look at it... its just hurtful...
if once i forgive and still can ignore but not twice with the word GIVE UP??
and i need to defend myself...

ive cool and stop everything but having yourself so busybody and again its in a mess...
i just give a thought and what i not happy about...
a brand new day is to forgive and forget... i almost did that but... unpredict...
and again why cant you stop as i did stop and in the end the blame is on me...
and i guess im still okae with it...

so get the facts right next time... as partly my fault...
but u did interfere... and so i did show my anger...

not only you but others too...
i just cant be bothered about it anymore...
go and get a life rather than buzzing around...
and i will be more happy if you just change that attitude for good...

and dont blame anyone if she got mad...
coz it just cant stop...
as early as it is, it started...
and there she go once she found out...

only her, who understand...

hahaha... just cant forgive him...
i can forgive you but have to say it your own...

thanks to all of you that i wont be meeting him/her for leisure anymore...
only on events...

the end........

THAT BLOG MEANT TO BE YESTERDAY

2009-10-28T12:54:00.003+08:00

no matter what... we will still be friends... but im happy if both of you still together..

and im willing to ignore you for your happiness... and ive end it aready and please...

SORRYLAH

2009-10-28T10:40:00.002+08:00

kalau post aku menyusah kan korang then jangan baca...
i say aready what that is for YESTERDAY and i aready forgiven TODAY....

and also on my part IM SORRY...

but not on your brother side... if u are in my place u noe what im feeling...

*jangan terasa this is random...*
its my problem weather im wearing tudong or not... yang berdosa aku bukan korg... when u get into the world i am in now then you will understand... and thanx alot....

L.O.V.E

2009-10-26T13:52:00.004+08:00

soon we will turn to 2 years old...

i think again i fall in love with him...

miss him so much..

as never expected that i will miss him haha...

love you... coz u make my day and will keep listening to me...

im ur bubbly girl...

am urs...

L.O.V.E

only you

im loving it...

2009-10-25T00:06:00.005+08:00

time for update...

ermmm...

thursday had dis Alumni meet up due to our BBQ on 14NOV09..
and so we did alot of planning and stuff and all is done!!
yippie...

next....
friday nothing much but early too bed...

*sorie sis (ayn) for neglecting you*

Saturday...
is a havoc...

wake up early morning...
this is my schedule...

wake up at 7.30a.m... bath and getting ready...
8.30a.m... off to market but stop at laundry first to send my comforter.. but too bad the laundry open at 9.30a.m... so mum work morning shift put the comforter at sns and off to the wet market...
9.00a.m finish my grocery... askd sis to went back bring all the grocery and i waited for the laundry shop to open...
9.30a.m sent off to laundry and im off take bus to marsiling... (next destination)
10.00a.m... reach POSB bank.. settle my saving plan and my giro form.. off took my own sweet time... by thenit was almost like 11.00 a.m... and while i walking at the marsiling old interchange, my stomach grumbling for food hahaha... coz i didnt take my breakfast... but i just ignore it coz granny cook mee rebus as i asked for it... went to Sheng Shiong and bought alot of titbits.. hahaha... gosh!! i feel like.. i dunnoe how to explain...

reach home almost 12.00p.m... reach home eat 2 bowl of mee rebus and a chicken wing.. fuh full to the max...
1.30p.m msg dear to fetch me as i lazy to take bus to my friend house...
2.00 p.m he reach and send me off to bangkit... hahaha...
from there my colleague RICk fetch us and off to a photoshot... it was great and fun.. at marina piers... hehe...

6.30p.m Dear fetch me and i was fickle minded... haha... in the end decided go Vivo... walk around and feel damn tired... but oklah its been since i walk around.. haha..
so did shop for baju for Dear.. as i think he need new and a new stock.. hahaha...
then got a shoe.. like atlast... not exactly shoe but its a sandal.. i guest.. haha
was damn happy... hahaha... ouh bought it at DMK in habourfront...

and off to macdonald in west coast.. chill talk photo.. haha...

miss those days... but yeah...

hehe.. okae i think im too excited on saturday as i did alot of thing that i miss already hahaha...
Thanks everyone for making my day... haha...
Love You...

a quick pic....

2009-10-21T13:54:00.003+08:00

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a quick one...

receive this from dearie friend...

so... got alot pic will uplad soon...

u all saw his name before... JOHN...

and here he is...

will introduce u UFO soon...

okae dis is him UFO...
the one on top of me...

be right back....

L.O.V.E

2009-10-20T19:12:00.003+08:00

If you love someone, set them free.
If they come back they’re yours;

If they don’t they never meant to be...

,

Berikut adalah nasihat-nasihat berguna untuk orang-orang yang bercinta:

1. Janganlah kau membiarkan kemanisan bercinta dihirup sebelum engkau berkahwin dengan 'si dia'.

2. Bercintalah kau dengan nya dengan sekadarnya. Kelak mungkin 'si dia' mungkin bukan jodoh untukmu.

3. Jika kau ingin berbahagia seumur hidup, tahanlah dirimu untuk berbahagia sebelum kau berhak menjadi milik 'si dia'.

4. Jika engkau menyintainya, binalah asas perkahwinan dengan tidak melaggar syariatNYA.

5. Kebahagiaan yang kau lihat sebelum berkahwin hanya palsu, yang hakikinya adalah selepas kau diijabkabulkan.

6. Jikalau engkau inginkan pasangan hidupmu yang terbaik untukmu, maka engkaulah yang patut menjadi yang terbaik dahulu.

7. Membina keserasian sebelum berkahwin bukanlah dengan cara ber'dating', cukuplah sekadar engkau tahu apa yang perlu kau tahu.

8. Bercintalah untuk mencapai cintaNYA.

9. Jika engkau masih belum bercinta, tahanlah dirimu untuk bercinta sehingga yakin cinta tersebut membawamu ke gerbang perkahwinan.

10. Jangan biarkan nafsumu dengan cinta yang tidak diterima disisi ALLAH, kelak ALLAH akan tarik kebahagian darimu.

Setiap nasihat ini mungkin tidak relevan kepada seseorang. Mungkin ia juga relevan kepada seseorang yang lain.

With love you want to cry, a million tears with every sigh

Without love you want to die, a million tears with every bye

The tears can hurt

The tears can heal

With you I slowly begin to lose my mind

Without you the dark slowly makes me blind

Love is beauty

Love is ugly

With time broken hearts can be sewn

Without time broken heart are left alone

You can hurt

You can heal

~~~.....~~~

what is love?? and what is true love??

ive seen around... and i see for myself...

i just cant simplify it...

but this is what i feel...

i dont think i always need him but i will appreciate if he's there for me...

i dont wish to fully commit as i dont see a need to commit in as u still dont have the "tie" yet

im still young why should i bother about it now?? (marriage) if this relationship goes well, i dont see the need if u need to tie a knot soon.. okae lets put this way.... if u were to tie knot soon, have u noe them well?? although u noe them almost 3 years is that enough?? even i got a friend who's relationship almost 5 yrs in the end they broke off... and i dun see the need for that... it does not wrong for u to save and plan as that is a need for it... but avoid it to be early...

... a sudden thought...

... and im sorry if i treat u less.. as what all the above state is quite tru (nasihat berguna untuk orang bercinta)

quick and short...

2009-10-19T19:15:00.006+08:00

making a quick short post...

simply nothing much to say...
but i did had fun during weekend...
lets start it!!!

Friday...
from work straight home..
hehe.. did plan for a bowling game for family.. weheee~~~~
happy... *will post some pic soon*
and went to west coast to have our supper.. hehe
delicious~~~

Saturday...
went to Liqaa Eid at Islamic Hub...
it was wonderful and colourful... and indeed we did lots of snapshot haha
have yet to receive some from others...
will updates the pic soon aites..
ouh yar atlast we did took photo of 4 of us...
see this....

lawa kan kite kite... hehe...

and Sunday...
was a lazy day at home hehe...

yeah!! i had fun over the weekend... had fun chatting with UFO and JOHN over at FB...
haha..

and so people.. im off to.... BYE!!!

*SITI NURAINI BINTE MAWI THANX FOR THE SONG AITES... HEHEHE*
*LOVE YOU VERY STRONG!!!*

2009-10-14T22:41:00.003+08:00

assalammualaikum...
first of all...
a friend of mine during NPCC dyas had passed away this afternoon...
lets doa for her, Shafadina...
Al - Fatehah...

next...
those photos previous post are for a friend of mine...
she die2 want me to edit it...
and there it goes...
hehe...

actually not much to update...

wasalam....

SITI NURAINI CEPAT GRAB!!!

2009-10-14T20:01:00.003+08:00

nur aqilah

2009-10-12T22:36:00.005+08:00

ouh yar did this on the 10th during outing wif GPG...

ayn comment!!!!!

before...

after...

2009-10-12T21:29:00.005+08:00

][editted][

i just dunt understand some people...

~~~.....~~~

okae proper updates...
wanted to blog last nite but was so damn tired.. hehe...

saturday;

went out rayaing with the GPG peeps...
this year Dear and me chill...
we took car as razmy is the driver.. hehe..
rent out car and drive...
so it seems that it was damn releks.. seriously haha...
and whats more i feel like we r happy family... hehe
damn coincident... kwang kwang kwang...

sweet kan kite2.. hehe...

sunday morning was an outing to U.A house and like sit at his place till Dear fetch me..
that lilttle junior is damn cute lah seh.. ouh my soooo geram.. haha...
so peeps he is my dearest boy okae...

hehe
then outz wif razmy and farhana...
and we sit at seoul garden for almost 2hrs...
and by the time it was damn fulll!!!!
hahahaha

~~~.....~~~

i think right thats all... tapis ajer...
dalaman tk operlu tau coz its such a sweet to share...
and aniwae...
really did thought of making the BBQ before U.A left...
can i charge u all.. $3 per person??
hehe...

thankiu...

love u many2....

UNTUK TANTAPAN CIK SITI NURAINI

2009-10-12T13:26:00.006+08:00

GAMBAR-GAMBAR MU...

dan gambar ku yang tk lawa...

kwe kwe kwe.. hehe...

dan yang ini... tk important haha...

2009-10-08T14:27:00.008+08:00

L.O.V.E

everlasting??

does fights and quarrels make us understand each other better??

*nie gambar latest this year... hehehe...*

*background mcm kene gitu lawa*

*opppssss.... trpuji diri sendiri*

2009-10-08T13:34:00.002+08:00

sempat aku blog kat kerje haha...

ouh yar ive been long want to post this but everytimr im here i type different thing haha...

and whenever i think of this;

"usatz, nama ustaz, ibrahim ehk??"

"taklah name saya John"

i start giggling myself....

haha

and whenever i pass by him he will call me "Raudhah"

how i noe him or how he noe me is thru NOP and also thru PANADOL...

i think if he dun need PANADOL, he dunnoe me and i dunnoe him... hehe

and so i decided to list down this....

John -

Micheal -

UFO -

UK -

US -

UA -

KP -

Adidas -

will list down more... coz now my mind block with work hahaha...

or anybody who want to add in my list may drop in the chatty box aites... hehe...

2009-10-04T20:54:00.002+08:00

hey.. okae.. computer down again...
use brother lappy...

days at work were great extremely fun...
time goes totally fun...
fuh!!
when i rch work i realise 11am... after lunch realise again 4pm aready...
isnt dat fun?? haha.. then then, after one day the next day come...
and i tell u its totally fast...

have not yet upload raya pics and ibu have started nagging and ask for it...
kejap yer bu... ive yet to find my usb cable which i dunnoe where i put hehe...

yesterday went rayaing.... although reach home abit earlier, im totally tired...
padahal only about 4 house.. hehe...

my grandma always tell me a story about my late uncle girlfriend who will take me to her house everyday and which my late uncle will go to her house to fetch me back.. hehe... how sweet was that when i was about a mth till one years old... hehe...
late uncle passed away when i was about one year plus... im still small so i cant remember.. hehe... and so... now his girlfriend still visit us... how sweet and touching was that... and my tears fall without my realisation.... (actually they visited last sunday) so we visited her yesterday hehe... and all she do is stuffed me with all the food.. and im totally bloated.. haha...

"paman, how i wish u were here. and i noe u will love me right? and all this thing wont happen."
al-fatehah

since i were young i wish to have a big brother... who will love me and adores me alot and who will dote on me...
ini semua dugaan untuk ku...

okay....

today was fun though...

morning went to darul arqam with a chinese friend...
then out for rayaing with the ite friends... it was so fun!!.. hehe
not that fun lah but after a year of not meeting atlast meeting them... soon will upload the pics aites one i got it... hehe...

okae thing thats all.. coz its like sooooooo damn long hehehe...

see u ard soon....

hidup sederhana...

2009-09-25T19:31:00.004+08:00

*yawn* feel like sleeping too tired...

now continue what i left half way last nite as i rush myself to gym...
kwang kwang kwang...

first day of Syawal as per normal.. everything was great... hehe...
esp the FOOD.. hehe
(nothing to ellaborate more)

*that was suppose to be last nite but in the end i fall asleep halfway typing*
* now lets continue *

~~~.....~~~

to be frank its almost a month of not meeting each other...
and the truth is, since i start working i abandon him.. but at the same time i less msg with peeps..
i msg him less when days pass by...
i really got no idea..
as day pass by, something really got into me...
i just dont know...
easy reason.. im too tired.. dats all..
but when i try to make things up, things were just effortless...

what those relationship really means??
i just dont understand...
am i to blame or??

cant be bothered?? i doubt so.. its really hard to take care of this relationship where u think its easy...
alot of his habit that i dislike... i told him once but over a year he forget again...
i really wish if he could remember a single thing of mine.. atleast one.. but in the end he keep forgetting and in the end i were to blame.. and that really hutrs me... i cant ask much from him but the thing is... its really hard to express... and now all the blame is me...

guys, if ur GF did not reply ur msg what will u do?? atleast give it a kol am i right??
or...
if they seldom send u a msg what will u do??
either u kol her every night and ask or msg her that u want a mit up am i right??

only gods know...
self-fish??

i had to coz if only im the one who keep remember every single thing of his why cant him??
if he keep giving me the same reason, its almost two years and u should know what i want...

u told me u noe me well.. but how well is that??
i think by the rough side but not the softer side...
im sad...
*just cant say abt it*

i dont know how long this things going to take...

let it be...
hope it will heal soon...

im giving in and let him decide weather he want to keep his ego or to let go...

for almost a month i feel i dun have him in my life and i hope i can live w/o him if thats what he want...

CINTA MANUSIA MENYAKIT KAN TAPI CINTA ALLAH SETIA

2009-09-24T19:28:00.003+08:00

i noe ive abandon my blog for like godsake.. a long long time...

and now its time for me to update as i feel like to...

actually daripada sebelum raya...

due to internet cut off.. so i dun have the chance to blog...

and now i do...

~~~.....~~~

saat2 terakhir Ramadhan, aku melangkah kan kaki ke surau yang berdekatan.
(sebenarnya di multi purpose hall nearby neighbourhood)
aku terkejut. Pada saat permulaan Ramadhan bergitu penuh dan sampai kesemua saf dipenuh kan... Aku terkejut pada saat-saat terakhir tinggal 2 atau 3 saf ajer... itulah kami...

Pada saat-saat akhir Ramadhan aku amat terasa kesyahduan nya. aku tringat kembali saat2 dosa besar yang aku pernah lakukan. Aku mula renungkan kembali. Tanpa disedari titisan air mata ku yang ku tahan tadi jatuh di pipi ku...

Allah pengampun dan Dia maha pengasih...

aku mula kenangkan masa2 yang aku amat merindui.

takbir bergema digegangngan radio. Disaat itulah titisan air mata ku nerderai...
Ramadhan berlalu sekali lagi dan Syawal tiba. bertapa syahdu nya takbir berkumandang.
aku berdoa, supaya dirahmati. Ramadhan yang penuh berkat itu mudah-mudahan tidak berakhir begitu sahaja.......

2009-09-09T22:08:00.002+08:00

*fuh fuh*
very the dusty haha...

wanted to blog since sun but tk kesampaian as im too tired haha...

alhamdulilah baru nari ade time.. hehe

okae wat to blog??

let me see...

~~~.....~~~

about sunday...

i was having fun with the family.. again i cancel my tuition.. hehe...

was baking cookies when i woke up (and my cookie tk sempat nk beraya... coz it was finish eaten by my siblings)
then ayah woke up.. abislah tu store die bongkar... and he decided to paint some dirty wall...
it was fun haha.. satu rumah kecoh...
house cleaning time!! haha..
excluded ibu...
ibu do the cooking for breakfast...
and we sit in the one big table having our breakfast... im so damn happy as atlast the whole family seat together for the meaningful and delicious dinner...
after breakfast solat together the whole family.. lagi ku happy but we didnt manage to go for terawih as the house havent finish clearing stuff...
so we continue...
ubah sana sini...
atlast dah lawa.. masih bau lagi mcm rumah baru hahaha...
dats what im so happy all about...
but its tiring hehe...
nvm lah... all i want is fun and bonding...

alhamdulilah work so far is fine... hehe...

den watelse ehk...

ermm.. yar 10 more days to raya... feel like raya??

haha dunnoelah...

ouhyar...

now i cant control my temper... kdg feel them like irritating on ade...

ouh.. since ive start working i did ask my mum to stop working.. coz i noe i cant afford my energy to do the housework haha....
or
she may want to work less... thats all about hehe...

ermmm... okaelah i wanna go to sleep...
byes and goodnite...

2009-09-04T20:46:00.004+08:00

time for updates...

Swagelok
Singapore Valve & Fitting PTE LTD
28 mandai road

there is wear i work as...

... Admin Assistant

alhamdulilah.. so far i can cope...
dunnoe how about in future.. but hopefully all will be fine...

today marks the fourth day ive been working...
pressure not yet i guess but tiredness is a must...
i think due to fasting month...
nah its ok.. soon i will get use to it...

colleague are very friendly.. hehe...
and theres this sis Mariana.. i love talking to her...
gerek beb!!.. ade teman bbual.. but preferred in such environment tkda org nk buruk2 kan kite.. hehe...

sorry lah ive not been updating its been like after isyak i fall asleep till sahur.. lama tau kirekan.. haha...

im soooo happy i work there.. or easy say i think i happy coz i got a job.. can be like last time again.. muahaha...

just cant wait for shopping.. i want to pamper myself please!! hehehe...

~~~.....~~~

i dont think im going for tomorrow event...
just let it be...
and i dun think im bothered to take note of it anymore...
i cant take msg from people.. whoever do it i must here from that whoever itself...
self-fish??
who me??
huh.. let it be.. i think its better if people dunnoe how to appreciate us...
betol tak abang Fareed.. haha...

"saya bukan marah kan dia seorang, saya marah kan semua orang yang ada disitu."

whatever i can say...

abeh yang dari jauh dah AQILAH tu ape??!!

yar u also scold ustaz syawafi.. but u are talking directly to me...

bulan puasa.. bersabar jelah.. hehe..

kalau ku berdaya insyaallah ku akan ke terawih esok di Assyafaah...

orite till here till the next updates...

i also dunnoe what to update.. hehe take care

2009-09-01T00:34:00.002+08:00

i still cant sleep...

nervous??

doubt so...

thinking what to wear tomorrow..

work then iftar...

how??

haha...

also im waiting for ayah to fix the printer to print my 'letter of appointment'

"EH BESOK KEJE LAH GI TIDO LAH KLUA MASOK BILIK... NGANTOK NANTI..."

ok mum have shouted..

alah bukannye jauh.. lunch pon blh tido per.. haha...

okae aqilah all the best!!!!!!!!!

goodienites...

2009-09-01T00:31:00.000+08:00

a friend of mine did asked me this question before...

what is the feeling when u have a guy "special" by your side??

what do u feel??

how is it having them??

and anybody can answer this.. ??

and for me...

... lets wait for the answer aites... haha..

goodnite...

2009-08-30T21:37:00.002+08:00

still thinking and considering weather i should go for the camp or not...

faci briefing i did not attend...

how about the camp??

after the story that adnin told me last nite...

i think and feel the dun need of attending it...

i dunnoe how i should describe it... haiz...

~~~.....~~~

yesterday nite meet Dear after which 2weeks didnt meet due to his work schedule... soon for me also will be the same...

yesterday outing rating 60%.. i dun feel much fun... i dunnoe why... because of the group??
nah not so sure...
as usual.. after the long mia and den meet up.. we have our mini argument.. haha...
standard anything can be our topic or argument...
i will not elaborate on it...
haha...
but after that we was fine after the talk with each other confess wat we are not satisfied...
alhamdulilah it was fine after then...

haha... gaduh skejap...

i felt guilty to the guys... becoz of my strange behavior, i drag him out from the group and talk and walk as he have to entertain me to cool down...
sorie aites guys...

~~~.....~~~

had this dream last nite...

both of my jari manis got a ring which somebody put on it.. first it was on the right then on the left.. but i cant remember clearly who is the person... so what does that suppose to mean... hopefully it mean nothing...

and so thats all.. lets wait for more updates...

2009-08-28T21:20:00.002+08:00

been almost a week ive not post anything...

alhamdulilah ramadhan byk rahmat nyer,,,

so wats up??

amcm?? ade baik??

haha...

days was great.. but i miss terawih ar.. although i didnt fast but still i act as im fasting hehe... alamak paiseh ar.. haha...
and so i got alot of things in my mind just now but now slowly it fade when im typing muahaha...

one of it is this...

i fetch my brother from school like a few days back...
and since then this two girls attract my attention...
kids nowadays not like my time... although we are wild and stuff but still not to the extend am i right??
keep watching at this two girls... haha... if i could record... i think u noe what im thinking...
one of the girl talk wah.. haha.. i can guess they were talking about guys and i heard the word 'steady' hahaha... and i guess they are like P3 or P4.. like dat..
the next day.. wah almos like 5-6 of them.. and i can guess that it was all about guys...

ouh my adik2 please lah go and study first then can talk about all this things... u grils are so ridiculous... kecik2 dah bbual pasal nie semua...

okae only that i can remember what i want to post and so if i remember the rest i will quickly update...
ouh yar another thing...

im soooooooooooooo happy over the moon... hahaha

2009-08-28T16:14:00.002+08:00

cant wait to post...

alot in my mind...

but im tired to type it...

thats for now...

... see u later!!!

2009-08-23T15:27:00.001+08:00

YUPZZZZZZZZ

i change my blog skin.. haha..

colourful kan mcm bloodyfool.. hahaha

kae merepeks...

2009-08-23T00:24:00.003+08:00

i feel like i want to run from everybody...

my friends??

but not Adnin or shu obviously...

or even i want to stay out from my mosque youth....

possible??

stay out and will not join others...

i dunnoe why suddenly i think like dat...

but eventually...

obviously i dunnoe what im thinking...

i miss alot of people... ramadhan make me think of my pass friends that im close with... how syahdu it have been...

still remember...

"eh aku tk takot ar balik malam sorang2"

i noe dat coz obviously all the setan or hantu have been lock up.. silly girl...

haha still remember very fresh...

i really miss her...

she tooooooo busy.. i doubt so...

"kite tk penah gi geylang together but days at mosque keep us together"

yupz in ramadhan we didnt buka together before or even went to geylang together.. haha

i dunnoe why im avoiding her... but she still the best...

although she like a grandma who nag or ntah haha... she still be there for me..

"kite buka ramai2 tau... dah dua kali buka puasa celebrate birthday dia"

this year will be mark as the first time we buka only both of us.. haha.. ouh wait..

i think last yr got but all that is kebetulan.. think.. haha...

but for the last two year breakfast with her in a big group lah.. haha

kenangan demi kenangan...

hari demi hari detik demi detik...

tk dapat menafikan manusia berubah...

insyaallah dalam bulan Ramadhan ini pintu hidyahnya terbuka untuk berubah..

~~~.....~~~

i miss my Dear badly...

although i didnt reply to his msg or didnt msg him dat often...

i miss him.. kae let me count... out yar its been a week dat i meet him...

soon will be two weeks rite Dear.. haha...

lets buka together... dun forget...

tahun untuk kedua.. hope it will be forever...

~~~.....~~~

its raining..

ade hikmah nye..

nikmat tuhan...

alhamdulilah...

2009-08-22T15:25:00.003+08:00

suddenly got the urge of doing my own name card...

after ive done YIC poster...

thought of creating my own logo.. but i think i need someone expert to do that for me..

i think simple.. miteb elegent...

as for the name card, on the left hand corner.. dat will be my temporary logo...

aqiza creats... which consist of my mum name and mine.. creats as in we do such service...

-name card

- pulut kuning for wedding or hantaran

- gubahan

thats for now.. insyaallah if got rezeki we intend to expand...

i dun have any sample for now.. for pulut i have it in my FB only dun have the gubahan pics...

hehe ... mcm promote jer...

haha..

2009-08-21T21:33:00.003+08:00

SALAM...

SELAMAT BERPUASA...

HAPPY FASTING!!...

YEAH!!!

i dunnoe why im such excited this ramadhan and really looking forward to it...

just came back from terawih...

feel so happy...

semoga pintu hatinya terbuka untuk mendekati NYA

ameen...

im loving it...

now i have to plan properly what i want to do this ramadhan...

also.. alhamdulilah im starting to work.. yeah!!...

okae2 i dunnoe why im so excited...

only my heart know better...

have to go haha...

2009-08-19T14:33:00.002+08:00

thought of making a BBQ by the end of the year...

which i can invite almost around 40 people.. haha...

first thing is the price of food.. hahaha...

insyaallah.. kasi orang makan dapat pahal.. so have to save up hehe...

people i wish to invite are...

- my ex secondary school mates

- my youth legend

- my climber friends

- and all my friends.. haha

ouh not forgetting

Dear friend...

- GPG

- and whoever he want to invite...

but... i need to find venue which can afford all this people... haha...

also convenient...

how??

do drop a suggestion aites...

yar im doing invitation list haha....

2009-08-19T01:02:00.002+08:00

"Yg ni playcheat...tak rewang, datang makan aje."

haha..

yar i come and eat haha...

coz im damn hungry.. last i had my food is like 2pm.. dat time was ard 9pm.. hehe

2009-08-18T18:50:00.002+08:00

coincidence...

on 090809

2009-08-18T13:57:00.003+08:00

yeah...

talk to Adnin last night.. fuh.. reveal everything that i am not satisfied with him...

the only thing i should ask myself now...

weather should i stop it or go on...

coz it hurts me...

yar i pretend as if nothing.. but the hatred...

u think its a big deal is it...

OK2.... so I'm just waiting for Adnin to go somewhere with kakak and waiting for everything Tonite... Adnin!! don't forget to call me to update aites.. haha...

bukan nk memusnahkan atau menghancurkan...

UFO

only Adnin know it haha...

somebody that is round like O haha

okae thats bad of me..

all because of Adnin lah make me think of it.. haha...

~~~.....~~~

didnt even to think im counting it.. just happen the thought...

1year 8mth

ermmm... alhamdulilah.. it goes well...

since a long time... the long relationship im going thru...

apa yang berlaku ada hikmahnye...

insyallah if there is nothing happen...

i dont know how we can tolerate with each other...

people will think we are fine.. but hehe..

all i wish is the Doa...

which will lead thru to somewhere...

*naughty giggle*

2009-08-17T17:31:00.004+08:00

doing on poster now...

blur

the only word...

why??

because.. i seen other poster and im soooooo irritate by that... they make it so wonderful why cant i??

is it all because of skill?? argh!! shitlah...

lets do something different.. hahaha...

jeng jeng... nasib kau lah kan....

weekend was ok.. launch was ok..

lazy to go into detail coz to think back i feel like argue...

am still not satisfied with him...

ouh yar.. is it worth it doing this thing for him?? like after what happen??

argh!! he really something lah... ingat aku nie ape!!

i dont feel like doing.. after thinking.. ouh i think i want to ignore it...

ok friday going watch UP anybody?? pay urself kae...

think dats all...

here are my lame poster...

2009-08-11T10:38:00.004+08:00

weee~~~~

its been a long time i guess, since the long holiday i blog haha...

yar dulu rajin sekarang ikot mood i guess...

my holidays are fun although theres some up and down.. haha

kae will go into detail one by one...

days by days...

haha

here we go~~~~

Friday:

was a last minute chage of plan...

memandang kan Adnin got last min urgent thing to attend, and nora also got outing, decided to give a miss on kak abshah solemanisation... so i headed for late tuition then mit dear and we went to buy things on him.. hehe...

Saturday:

wake up in the early morning... went to market as granmum making some kenduri at home.. then home do all the house cleaning then help to cook.. by 12 plus get ready for jemputan...

first place was sengkang.. lyn place.. waiting for lala like almost half an hour hehe.. then eat talk everythng then off to second invitation that was at bukit panjang... kaka abshah place...

she look soooooo elegant.. ouh my gosh like none of us believe it seh.. hehe...

next was home... because of the kenduri...

then next was sengkang... yat f

riend dinner wedding..

i think right something went wrong... and so the girls is so bingit.. haha...

here it goes...

when

when me at yat arrive, we saw alep was washing the dishes... and i goes like "apa seh" then he say while waiting to start help out abit... wah i was like uh?? yat is like smart and im wearing heels... pls lah.. haha... so still i help out till i worn out.. the rest reach almot 7.30 and when we are informed that we should help out we was like gosh... so the girls went to the car, which razmy and farhanah car, and we went off.. left the guys doing th

e work... okae girls ade cerewet dia.. but im wearing heels not to do work okae...

my legs are swollen once i reach home... haha

Sunday:

was a late wake up.. haha almost 11 pm i woke up... when Dear almost reach my house to fetch me.. hehehe... up and ready for the wedding escort... so, the guys plan to meet at haron place at cck then off all of us to bb to start our

escort till sengkang...

so nothing much story as we dont have to do anything.. instead we sat eat and talk haha...

nice talking with them hehe...

then off to bbq at bb(cdans chalet)

Monday:

was a last minute plan out... woke up ard 11plus... then was thinking and deciding what time off for tuition.. instead Dear msg me to inform me to get ready... was ard 1plus... so i drag myself up and ready for the out with razmy and farhanah...

so went to ecp for late lunch and still thinking where to go

next... and so in the end we went to sentosa.. hehe... next destination suppose to be henderson wave, since razmy want to go to discovery center we proc

eed. once we reached we have found out that the place is close... haha.. and so otak kite buntu tak tau nak pergi mana... so we go rounding whereever it take us to...

and i have a splendid time...

and so thats how my longggg weekend goes like.. hehe...

and four days straight me and dear

spend time together.. hehe

2009-08-07T00:39:00.001+08:00

Duhai kasih cuba kau dengarkan
Bisik hati penuh kejujuran
Dengan sepenuh keikhlasan
Ku dambakan pengertian

Jangan kau dengar fitnah dunia
Kerna ianya dusta semata
Menghancurkan kesucian
Jalinan kebahagiaan

Sebenarnya aku merasa
Sinar cahaya yang gemilang
Ketika kau beriku harapan

Dan sering aku harapkan
Cinta berlandas keimanan
Dan kasih suci kita kan diberkati

Ku cuba sedaya
Agar dirahmati perhubungan yang telah terbina
Kerna pasti aku
Yang akan merasa pedihnya kehilangan insan sepertimu

Tuhan berikanlah
Ketabahan hatiku untuk membina impian kasihku
Bersama mengharapkan
Ketulusan cinta ini untuk membina mahligai bahgia..

2009-08-06T15:33:00.004+08:00

lets make a quick and short post.

yeah i noe ive neglect my blog... haha

ermmm.. what should i update??

ermmm... what i can say is life is well goes...

thats all...

haha...

but im looking forward to my packed weekend thats all...

haha

yes!! fully packed..

ouh i did some notes for my p6 student so she dont have to watse her time to do notes...

also i did some writing...

hehe...

errmmm.... last saturday CPR should be spell a.w.e.s.o.m.e

meet with the have been miss people... haha

and those people who knows me as "eh u are from ANC kan"

did talk to them but mostly were guys!! im so shy lah deh!! haha

ok merepek kalau aqilah pemalu.. but seriously i was damn shy at that time haha...

sunday was home rest haha... didnt go anywhere because ibu is working...

hahaha

and so monday went for interview... i really hope they will give me a call soon please!!

and tuesday was out with Adnin...

went to certain places and so sweet of her for treating me haha...

then her brother send me home... wah gerek lah seh...

and so like dat lor.. hahaha

but this coming weekend is such a troublesome...

was just inform by granny that she's having mini kenduri at home this sat... ouh....

im having my difficulties now...

how??

this granny of mine keep changing her plan till i also i dunnoelah...

my plan was

to Lyn house - engagement

then kak Abshah - sanding

then Qahar house - dinner

and granny is planning to have her kenduri after asar!!! ouh my how??!!!

ish... i have to make a decision... sheesh....

okae.. tomorrow is friday another full day i think so...

ermmm... and sunday having a barbeque with father side...

i think thats all.. haha...

yeah quick and short... opppss... i mean long hahaha

eh mamat!! lu sudah tkda boncit lagi lah seh!! haha...

make sure that shirt u can fit uh!!.... hahaha

take care darling

2009-08-01T00:52:00.003+08:00

that bangau seriously test my patiance....

argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i dont know what to do...

dah lah ntah lah!!!!!!

i was suppose to be happy today but i end it wif anger....

my mood is totally spoil by that bangau...

i had a great time just now.. since yest...

but today much more fun coz he was there...

but he spoil my mood in the end...

just what he is not satisfied with me??

2009-07-27T23:48:00.004+08:00

dont tell me i have to change my blogskin again??!!

argh!!!

testing agian...

well.. okae its ok aready... haha...

but sad the previous post cant be save..

2009-07-27T00:11:00.008+08:00

im home....

haha merepek...

and so...

khehe... feel relief...

i don't know why i am sooooo looking

forward for the coming days...

haha... okay enough.. think I'm too happy...

but don't be too happy yet...

now i know everything about engagement...

not everything basically...only the basic...

fuh kecoh2... haha...

so Siti Aishah congrats....

no more fooling around okay...

so after her house was atok sedara house...

and this auntie of mind is kakak

sedara of one of my friend in ITE...

panjang2.. haha.. and she ask me about

the invitation and so i say yar... and i did guess well..

all this old folks has nothing better to do.. out of many

question they ask me "bila ilah punya turn?"

i was like uh?? hey hello I'm still 20.. and I'm jobless...

enjoy first lah.. haha

i guess.. yar almost 70% of my friend are engaged...

and so if i attend any one of their engagement they

or their parents will ask.. "when will be your turn"

haha...

i think i still got a long way to go...

i would like want to enjoy first i guess...

.....~~~.....

what will be my life be after this??ell... i know i don't have the answer now...

hope HE will answer to my prayers...

everything happen there's a reason...

JANGAN BERDUKACITA DENGAN

UJIAN DAN CUBAAN ALLAH.

LANTARAN BOLEH JADI SATU

ADIAH ATAU PEMBERIAN.

that sentence will be kept in mind...

and i will remember it...

2009-07-26T01:36:00.003+08:00

i feel sleepy but also i feel i wanna cry...

my hearts is not at ease now...

predict something going to happen...

"YA ALLAH JAUH KANLAH BENCANA YANG TAK SEPATUTNYA DRAIPADA KU"

how i wish i can recite Qur-An now.. but i cant...

or even Adnin by my side to talk with me so i can express everything...

i want to cry i cant....

got this feeling before... but.. nah....

hopefully nothing happen....

2009-07-25T00:03:00.002+08:00

how i wish i am that storng...

"YA ALLAH KUATKANLAH SEMANGAT HAMBA MU NI ALLAH"

i shouldnt go further

it hurts me alot...

and i really wish im strong...

so no more time to slack...

have to move on...

thanx alot for giving hopes...

congrats

2009-07-24T16:19:00.002+08:00

have anybody thought or think what does LA DOLCE LOVE means??
haha

it means MY SWEET LOVE....

how wonderful if the life u leading is as beautiful as it is...
and my love life as sweet as it be...

.....~~~.....

to my dearest girls friend... congrats to all of you...

this few of my friends will be getting engaged or even have engaged...
im so proud and happy for them....

Roszilawati...
Siti Aishah...
Norlin...
Amalina...

and might be others who i have lost contact but will pray for you guys...

me?? haha wait long long lah....

kae thats for now....

mistake

2009-07-22T22:34:00.003+08:00

its been hard to go through life that HE have destined for us...

with HIS will and Patience i know, i can go through this...

all i need is to be strong...

i know i did a lot of mistake in the past...

i meant it a lot...

and i hope i could mended it soon...

but.... only HE knows what I'm going through right now...

just to pay off the sin that i did before...

.....~~~.....

Justice

2009-07-21T22:55:00.005+08:00

was out in the afternoon... accompanied by Adnin...

alhamdulilah... at last i did it...

JUSTICE

that's all i want...

i was happy all along the way just now after i made it...

" i found out about the services rendered by the shop... they did not do servicing but instead they buy or sell...

the shop is mended by two people... but the first one has quited long ago... and he was involve in a similar case... and he have been arrested... and species considered as a wanted person as he is an accomplice of the criminal...its a simple matter but he just don't want to cooperate...

if he want to cooperate, we will reconsider about his case.. if not.. we have no choice.... "

it was a bit complicated and difficult for me.. lucky Adnin is by my side to speak up for me or not i don't know how it goes...

and with god will, I'm strong to speak up everything...

all i need is justice...

thanks to the IO who help me and i hope the culprit will be nab soon...

i just cant wait to see the whole drama...

i don't mind if i don't get my things back.. but i just want him to pay for everything...

" do be careful next time if u were to be friend with guys... don't easily trust their words... "

BETTER BE SAVE THAN SORRY...

.....~~~.....

how i felt today...

2009-07-18T01:02:00.005+08:00

have u ever thought or dream how wonderful life could dream...

or even you wish

how life could be such a wonderful like you want it to be...

i would like and wish to leave my past behind...

i really wish...

only HE know i feel right now...

.....~~~.....

firstly i would like to congrats a friend of mine Lala...

congrats sis.. khehe

known her for almost 3 yrs...

she's engage.. today is the date.. khehe...

hope everything goes well and smoothly..

dan hingga ke jinjang pelamin..

I'm soooooo happy for you...

.....~~~.....

met up with Anin after tuition just know...

head down to commonwealth...

in the end it was a waste trip...

but at least i could just get some info...

but not the type of answer i need...

but i wish and i hope everything i just could settle by Tuesday is the latest...

i just need to be strong...

"YA ALLAH BAGILAH HAMBA MU KEKUATAN UNTUK MENERUSKAN PERJALANAN INI"

"AMEEN"

then we sat down around that area almost half an hour...

then decided to go to Mujahidin Mosque for prayers...

i feel my heart is peace when i near HIM..

but suddenly a lot of things strike me...

how i wish i am that strong to face HIM and also to face the days that will come in my life...

and why should i feel so dumb to let things happen..

just like that...and let it go....

at times.. i just cant bear to face it.. but i have too...

"OH ALLAH I NEED YOUR GUIDE"

i really cannot think through again...

*crying in her heart*

i really need to end this soon...

i cant live in this desire...

the new beginning story of my life...

that just what i need...

look forward and don't have to turn behind...

and I'm looking forward to this...

Thanks for making me strong...

at times i just cant bear to see myself in this state.. but i have to carry the consequences that i have make before... i'm sorry....*crying away*

naive or advantage

2009-07-14T20:42:00.006+08:00

are girls that naive??

guys are really good at taking advantages??

both??

Guys are good at taking advantages over a naive girls. Am i right??

and naive girls are just naive and they dont even know what are guys intention...

and untill one day the guy show his true colours...

are guys being fair to us, girls??

or girls being too kind??

*im not trying to pull/kill the guys but just being fair*

..........~~~..........

izinkan

2009-07-13T13:35:00.003+08:00

Ku cuba berlari di celah pelangi
Makin ku berlari makin ku pasti
Yang kucari kutemui
Mungkinkah ini
Hanya mainan mimpi
Mungkin ini kisah pasti
Ku tak mahu berakhir

Kau adalah ketemuan yang tak ku sangka
Kau adalah kebetulan yang terindah
Tawa bisa jadi cinta
Mungkin memang Suratan kita
Mungkin memang kau di hati
Ku jatuh cinta lagi

Ingin ku genggam tanganmu
Agar bisa kau dengar isi hatiku
Ingin aku beri semua cerita cinta dalam dunia
Hanya satu yang ku mahu
Hanya satu oh darimu
Izinkan aku, izin diriku
Cintai dan memujamu
Izinkan aku, izin diriku
Cintaimu oh selalu

just a thought

2009-07-12T19:42:00.004+08:00

have u ever thought what will happen in your life??

or u should say.. all is fated...

have u ever feel hurt??

people might say its useless to regret what happen as it is all pre-written...

yar it might partly true..

because we cant avoid things will happen as we did not expect one...

but how can we know how the things is going to happen...

this thing is not about how we can refrain it but it is all about a sudden...

and should i feel regretted??

ouh my ouh my...

partly yes and partly no...

useless to feel regret as all have happen...

and all i have to do is to make sure it will not happen again...

.....~~~.....

is it wrong to chat wif other guys/girls when u are in relationship??

if your partner were to find out.. they will be harsh to u or even your conversation will definitely turn into.... ermmm..

is it wrong to have more friends??

before u were given a chance to explain;

basically they will say,

guys part...

"who is he??"

*they wont get angry first*

"i dont think i trust you anymore"

girls part...

"who is that girl??!!"

*holding your anger if were infront of friends...*

*will explode if only the two of you*

haha funny right...

if they have explain.. i think it still the same lah...

"i dont trust you because u did it before..."

haha..

love, love...

but what happen if u really love somebody?? u still stay with them no matter what they did to you before.. am i right??

i just cant understand what those people think about it...

but every people have thier own mindset...

haha...

i love my family

2009-07-07T23:36:00.005+08:00

and tell you i dont know how to fall in love again or to love who...

and only know i love my family

..........