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have u ever thought or dream how wonderful life could dream...

or even you wish

how life could be such a wonderful like you want it to be...

i would like and wish to leave my past behind...

i really wish...

only HE know i feel right now...

.....~~~.....

firstly i would like to congrats a friend of mine Lala...

congrats sis.. khehe

known her for almost 3 yrs...

she's engage.. today is the date.. khehe...

hope everything goes well and smoothly..

dan hingga ke jinjang pelamin..

I'm soooooo happy for you...

.....~~~.....

met up with Anin after tuition just know...

head down to commonwealth...

in the end it was a waste trip...

but at least i could just get some info...

but not the type of answer i need...

but i wish and i hope everything i just could settle by Tuesday is the latest...

i just need to be strong...

"YA ALLAH BAGILAH HAMBA MU KEKUATAN UNTUK MENERUSKAN PERJALANAN INI"

"AMEEN"

then we sat down around that area almost half an hour...

then decided to go to Mujahidin Mosque for prayers...

i feel my heart is peace when i near HIM..

but suddenly a lot of things strike me...

how i wish i am that strong to face HIM and also to face the days that will come in my life...

and why should i feel so dumb to let things happen..

just like that...and let it go....

at times.. i just cant bear to face it.. but i have too...

"OH ALLAH I NEED YOUR GUIDE"

i really cannot think through again...

*crying in her heart*

i really need to end this soon...

i cant live in this desire...

the new beginning story of my life...

that just what i need...

look forward and don't have to turn behind...

and I'm looking forward to this...

Thanks for making me strong...

at times i just cant bear to see myself in this state.. but i have to carry the consequences that i have make before... i'm sorry....*crying away*