*yawn* feel like sleeping too tired...

now continue what i left half way last nite as i rush myself to gym...
kwang kwang kwang...

first day of Syawal as per normal.. everything was great... hehe...
esp the FOOD.. hehe
(nothing to ellaborate more)

*that was suppose to be last nite but in the end i fall asleep halfway typing*
* now lets continue *

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to be frank its almost a month of not meeting each other...
and the truth is, since i start working i abandon him.. but at the same time i less msg with peeps..
i msg him less when days pass by...
i really got no idea..
as day pass by, something really got into me...
i just dont know...
easy reason.. im too tired.. dats all..
but when i try to make things up, things were just effortless...

what those relationship really means??
i just dont understand...
am i to blame or??

cant be bothered?? i doubt so.. its really hard to take care of this relationship where u think its easy...
alot of his habit that i dislike... i told him once but over a year he forget again...
i really wish if he could remember a single thing of mine.. atleast one.. but in the end he keep forgetting and in the end i were to blame.. and that really hutrs me... i cant ask much from him but the thing is... its really hard to express... and now all the blame is me...

guys, if ur GF did not reply ur msg what will u do?? atleast give it a kol am i right??
or...
if they seldom send u a msg what will u do??
either u kol her every night and ask or msg her that u want a mit up am i right??

only gods know...
self-fish??

i had to coz if only im the one who keep remember every single thing of his why cant him??
if he keep giving me the same reason, its almost two years and u should know what i want...

u told me u noe me well.. but how well is that??
i think by the rough side but not the softer side...
im sad...
*just cant say abt it*

i dont know how long this things going to take...

let it be...
hope it will heal soon...

im giving in and let him decide weather he want to keep his ego or to let go...

for almost a month i feel i dun have him in my life and i hope i can live w/o him if thats what he want...

CINTA MANUSIA MENYAKIT KAN TAPI CINTA ALLAH SETIA