im tired of everything...
IM TIRED...
yar today shall be my happiest day... as im looking forward for today but instead im totally pissed by someone...
im tired of you and seriously like shit...
... reminding you what to wear or wear nicely
... repeating myself and i guess you wont remember a thing about me
... and all your hurtful words as i really hate it
u say that word not only once but countless... i just dont know weather you know how to respect me or not. im just tired of it.
its easy if u dont know how to respect me, well i guess u dont deserve my respect...
i got my own pride... how angry i am to u i try not to say all those shit words... but you do... u just say whatever u like... okae fine... yang berdosa pon kau bukan aku... and i did the best to remind you instead u ignore it...
i just hate it... everytime u say those words i feel like a knife stab my heart... u dont feel that cause im the one is the victim not you...
how much i want to see u change but i guess i expect too much from you..
i just dont know what to say about u anymore... i guess you dont know me that well yet...
if you know me u wouldnt do that or even dress like dat...
i dont mind u dress like dat but remember u hurt me...
its not easy for me just to heal in a short period of time... and its no easy to console me... as today im totally hurt... just because of one word... you make me cry...
"u ingat maki2 dapat pahala?"
and i expect you to say sorry or something but instead i got this from you..
"i dont care about maki2 nie"
and that makes me more hatred...
im sorry i guess im leaving you for thee mean time... this time it takes time to heal... cause i had enough of your words...
i hope it will be useful for us... please do some reflect and i will do my part too...
ive been telling you often do some reflection and i hope some changes in you and me too...
i guess dats all...
i wont expect too much from you as i did that before and it hurts all the time whenever i dont get what i expect...
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